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there are some things that just shouldn't happen. one of them happened tonight. i'm not going to say i was over what happened because that would be a lie but i was getting there. i was making progress. then he wants to talk about my life. i told him to have a nice life but i didn't want to talk about mine. i thought i was clear that i couldn't do that. he didn't want to be friends, he didn't want to be together, then he tells me he loves me. this is why i ended things. this is why i told him i couldn't do the relationship limbo thing. I CAN'T DO THIS! i want him in my life. for two years he was in my life, and i know things weren't perfect, but he's a friend and the conversations we had were amazing and we had fun. if nothing else i want to be able to talk to him again. there's a limited number of people in the world you can talk to about everything and nothing. there aren't that many people who will talk with you for hours so you can fall asleep. when two insomniacs can actually SLEEP together it means something, right? i want him out of my life but i don't. i have no idea what to do. i don't even know if i have a choice in the matter. even though he says he loves me, he's convinced we can't be in each other's lives. so that confuses the hell out of me too. i don't know how to deal with this.