odd
it's kind of interesting to read through some of my earlier entries. it still surprises me how quickly things change. like when i said i was 99.9999% sure i was going to a&m and here i am in rochester. other things too- like how our perceptions of actions change with time and by knowing the motivation behind them. i've been thinking about relationships of all kinds recently and i realized something. we will never KNOW anything for sure because we're human, unpredictable, irrational, and changeable. a relationship can be healthy for one person, but not the other. it can be healthy now but not later. it can be unhealthy now, but better another time. plus nothing is perfect. there will always be something that could be better, but things can be a hell of a lot worse too.
i guess the thing is we all do stupid things, but sometimes for good or justifiable reasons. we all annoy each other at some point. hell, one of my favorite people is my favorite person to fight with too (yes, i mean you sis). i need to start judging things based on what i know and not what i think i know. i've decided i'm done analyzing things to their cores. i will be with the people who make me happy. i will try to do the smart and responsible thing. we can't really live if we don't put ourselves out there. we've all been kicked around by life, but that's no reason to curl up and hide. granted sometimes we need a break to cope with what's happened before we can deal with more crap, but the key is to get back up and give life a few kicks and have fun and be happy. so that's what i'm going to do.
i guess the thing is we all do stupid things, but sometimes for good or justifiable reasons. we all annoy each other at some point. hell, one of my favorite people is my favorite person to fight with too (yes, i mean you sis). i need to start judging things based on what i know and not what i think i know. i've decided i'm done analyzing things to their cores. i will be with the people who make me happy. i will try to do the smart and responsible thing. we can't really live if we don't put ourselves out there. we've all been kicked around by life, but that's no reason to curl up and hide. granted sometimes we need a break to cope with what's happened before we can deal with more crap, but the key is to get back up and give life a few kicks and have fun and be happy. so that's what i'm going to do.