bored
I'm incredibly bored.
I thought I was going to hang out with Lauren tonight, but I guess that fell through. I talked about hanging out all week and figured we'd hang out this weekend, being as it is my last weekend at Penn State basically. I called, IMed, commented.....I don't know how else to get ahold of her.
Kim's been doing the same thing to me lately.
I didn't save for Chuck's this time because I wanted to spend some time with Lauren before I went home. Every single person I hang out with is at Chuck's Farm and is still asking me to go, but I'm still waiting to hang out with Lauren, and I couldn't go if I wanted to. People offered me rides yesterday, but I told them I had plans tonight. Now, I don't have a tent or gas money to go. Besides, I wouldn't be able to do anything when I got there because although I HAD $20 for an ExcEllEnt night, I spent it on food because I figured I wasn't going. Now all I want is to drivE out to Chuck's and havE somE good timEs.
Oh well. Looks like a night in. Woo.
I wish Brian would get ahold of me. I have V for Vendetta until Wedensday and wanted to watch it with him.
I cooked dinner for me and Charlie tonight. It was good. I don't know what's going on with Charlie. He's incredibly cute, and we've been hooking up, but I only have a week left here. One week. We've only been seeing each other for a week and a half. He's moving to Northern Jersey, then London. I'm moving to Springfield. He's Jewish, into comic books, raised by a wealthy family, and he's going to work at an excellent job.He's intelligent, he's funny, and he's sarcastic. I'm Catholic, into poetry, raised by a middle-class family, and I have no job prospects in sight.
We seem to come from two totally different worlds, and I'm not completely comfortable with him yet...but there are a lot of factors that add to that. 1)Just got out of a relationship that broke my heart. 2)It's only been a week and a half 3)I'm uncomfortable because I don't feel good enough for him.
But last night I joked about how I was just a piece of ass to him and he argued with me. Says he wouldn't have come to Whipple, the bars, or met and talked to any of my friends if I were just a piece of ass. Then tonight he refused to make a move. We had a good dinner, good conversation, he stayed here for hours, we talked about our families a bit, then he kissed me goodnight.
It was getting late and I told him I had to go over to Lauren's. I knew I wasn't going cuz I hadn't talked to her, but I was getting nervous that he was here so long after he told me he had stuff to do and refused to make a move.
Like I said, just not comfortable yet. If it were Brian, we could've sat around here doing nothing for hours and it would've been totally cool. Charlie's just very high-energy and I'm not used to that yet. Not after Brian. It's an adjustment period.
Then again, he is going overseas and even if he weren't, we live no where near each other. I really wish that something could come of this because I really like him, but I just don't see how that could happen.
Alright. Off to watch some TV, maybe a movie, and get ready for assloads of homework tommorrow.
If anyone reads this and wants to hang out, give me a call.
I thought I was going to hang out with Lauren tonight, but I guess that fell through. I talked about hanging out all week and figured we'd hang out this weekend, being as it is my last weekend at Penn State basically. I called, IMed, commented.....I don't know how else to get ahold of her.
Kim's been doing the same thing to me lately.
I didn't save for Chuck's this time because I wanted to spend some time with Lauren before I went home. Every single person I hang out with is at Chuck's Farm and is still asking me to go, but I'm still waiting to hang out with Lauren, and I couldn't go if I wanted to. People offered me rides yesterday, but I told them I had plans tonight. Now, I don't have a tent or gas money to go. Besides, I wouldn't be able to do anything when I got there because although I HAD $20 for an ExcEllEnt night, I spent it on food because I figured I wasn't going. Now all I want is to drivE out to Chuck's and havE somE good timEs.
Oh well. Looks like a night in. Woo.
I wish Brian would get ahold of me. I have V for Vendetta until Wedensday and wanted to watch it with him.
I cooked dinner for me and Charlie tonight. It was good. I don't know what's going on with Charlie. He's incredibly cute, and we've been hooking up, but I only have a week left here. One week. We've only been seeing each other for a week and a half. He's moving to Northern Jersey, then London. I'm moving to Springfield. He's Jewish, into comic books, raised by a wealthy family, and he's going to work at an excellent job.He's intelligent, he's funny, and he's sarcastic. I'm Catholic, into poetry, raised by a middle-class family, and I have no job prospects in sight.
We seem to come from two totally different worlds, and I'm not completely comfortable with him yet...but there are a lot of factors that add to that. 1)Just got out of a relationship that broke my heart. 2)It's only been a week and a half 3)I'm uncomfortable because I don't feel good enough for him.
But last night I joked about how I was just a piece of ass to him and he argued with me. Says he wouldn't have come to Whipple, the bars, or met and talked to any of my friends if I were just a piece of ass. Then tonight he refused to make a move. We had a good dinner, good conversation, he stayed here for hours, we talked about our families a bit, then he kissed me goodnight.
It was getting late and I told him I had to go over to Lauren's. I knew I wasn't going cuz I hadn't talked to her, but I was getting nervous that he was here so long after he told me he had stuff to do and refused to make a move.
Like I said, just not comfortable yet. If it were Brian, we could've sat around here doing nothing for hours and it would've been totally cool. Charlie's just very high-energy and I'm not used to that yet. Not after Brian. It's an adjustment period.
Then again, he is going overseas and even if he weren't, we live no where near each other. I really wish that something could come of this because I really like him, but I just don't see how that could happen.
Alright. Off to watch some TV, maybe a movie, and get ready for assloads of homework tommorrow.
If anyone reads this and wants to hang out, give me a call.