Here's a hint: it's a trick question.

Apr 19, 2007 22:01


So I've realized that sanity, for me anyway, is never 100% possible. But that's just o-k with me. I can never entirely rid myself of insecurity, paranoia, mania, inferiority complexes, strangely shifting extreme moods, overly-optimistic attitudes, or any of that, but that's alright. I should just embrace any odd feelings I have, and maybe I can use it to my advantage. Embrace the weirdness.

I'm sick of always feeling like there is something wrong with me, and then trying to fix it. I used to think that trying to self-improve oneself would actually work, and self-reflection furthers self-improvement. But it actually furthers your own realization of imperfection. I'm never gonna worry about myself not being perfect ever again. Or at least as little as possible, anyway. Because you're supposed to naturally mentally and socially develop, not constantly think about what does and doesn't help that. I should waste my conscience thinking on something that drives you a little less fuckin' crazy.

It would be nice if people didn't feed the fire, as if they are the greatest thing that ever walked on the earth. It's a shame that will never happen, though, and people will always try to walk all over you. No more walking on me.

This is a big step up for me because it's a serious epiphany; I used to always think that way. The key is to not think about it at all. It also has seriously improved my mood. Time to worry about things that actually matter.

philosophical

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