Confessional

[always_ashes]

[She's taken to sleeping on the couch as of late, not locking her door, leaving it a crack open. A doesn't really like Halloween, or October, and for some reason, she feels more comfortable leaving her door open a bit

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[blindly_bitter]

[Sound of footsteps, then a rather sleepless looking B answers. The effects of the Halloween room are starting to overcome him, it seems. This doesn't stop him from giving A a smile as he opens the door wider, light pouring in to reveal a sleeping Near]

Yes?

[always_ashes]

[She looks a little relieved upon seeing B.]
Hi, B...I'm sorry to bother you, but...I just need advice about something...And I can't sleep, so.

[blindly_bitter]

[The smile drops. So it wasn't just a friendly visit, it seemed.]

Concerning what, may I ask?

[always_ashes]

I...met Kira.

[She looks worried.]
And...I agreed with him, and it scared me. You're my best friend...and if anybody can help me with this, its you.

[blindly_bitter]

[He gestures for her to take a seat on a rather large armchair.]

On what points did you agree with him?

[always_ashes]

[A nods, going to sit down in the chair. She looks nervous.]

It...I don't know, I just did. He talked about crime going down...there was no war...
...but even though I agreed with him...I still hate him, what he did to L and Mello and Matt and you...

[blindly_bitter]

The idea is outlandish in itself. "Create a perfect world?"

Also amusing. He was killing murderers to show that killing was wrong! As if that wasn't enough, he was justifying it by calling it righteous judgement. When it reached the point where people were shot...simply for going against Kira, it had gone too far.

He deluded himself into believing that he really was above humans. God.

This is my own opinion here, but don't you agree that if he really was meant to rule the world..

He could have taken a bullet or two? [Smile]

I do not only disagree with him for what he has done against L, but his ideals.

If hating him because he hurt those you know is the only reason you have, what if that reason no longer exists? Would you worship the ground he walked upon? [Something dark is in his voice]

[always_ashes]

[She listens quietly, sadly. When she hears the darkness in B's voice, the dislike in his last comment, A's eyes widen, and she shakes her head.]
No....!! I don't worship him, I don't even like him!!

I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do, B...
[She sighs, slumping in the chair, head in hands.]

[blindly_bitter]

[Beyond gnaws on his sleeve thoughtfully.]

"We are not so different. I believe in what I think is right, and believe that to be righteous." [Glances at the sleeping Near.] That is what he said to Light Yagami that day. I agree with those words...

Just go with what you feel. The first thing you want to do? Do it.

Even if there is a consequence, you won't improve emotionally until you do.

...Of course, I may not be the best to take mental advice from. [There isn't a smile here.] What makes you happy is what you will want to go with, and even if there are people you feel you betray, do it.

[always_ashes]

...
[She listens quietly.]

...I don't trust him. I know what hes doing and why, but...It's wrong. I think it's wrong, and the only reason I ever tried to accept him was because of Teru...and I'll love him no matter how he feels about Kira....

You and Near are my family. I don't want to betray you.

[She sighs again.]
I think...for now, I'll just watch and see what happens.

...
Beyond, are you feeling ok? You...look sort of...well...awful.

[blindly_bitter]

Then thats that.

[Nods] Nothing better to do when in doubt.

[Frowns at this] Near said the same as well. I think it may have been one of the rooms. I've started taking up gnawing on things, and I can't sleept.

[always_ashes]

Thank you, B. You always do know what to say....

...It sounds like one of the rooms...
Teru is sick as well...itchy, can't sleep, restless...

[She frowns and looks determined.]
I'll look after you too, until you get better.

[blindly_bitter]

Is that good?

I'll see what happens sooner or later then.

[Frown] I'll be fine.

[always_ashes]

It's always good, B.
[She gives him a small grin before her face returns to one of concern.]

Doesn't matter if you'll be fine. You're sick, and I'm going to help you get better.

[blindly_bitter]

The Mansion tends not to give out illnesses that can be cured.

It is appreiciated, but I don't know what I've caught.

[Smiles, poor guy was going to be in for a big surprise.]

Do you want some honey? I keep some in the room should you drop by.

[always_ashes]

I know that...but the last illness wasn't really an illness. It was a ghost.
And I don't know what's going around, but...I'm gonna help as best as I can.

[She nods quietly, smiling a bit. He knows her too well, and she still loves him like a brother.]

I'd love some, thanks, B.
How are things with Near?