and i wonder if you know what it feels like to be really lied to...
i finally got to hang out with miss vicki friday night. and it was amazing. seriously. we were walking around target and i realized how much fun i was having. and how much more i need to try and keep up with my friends. before i lose them.
i opened at work saturday. which means i was up at 4.30 on a terrible night's sleep. it was a long day. but i got to work with some of my favorites so it was okay. really busy. and i almost snapped a couple of times. but it was as good as working from 6am - 3pm on a saturday can be i suppose.
today i woke up with probably the worst headache i've ever had. i couldn't function. and i could only get out of bed twice for like five minutes at a time. so i basically stayed in bed all day. i feel like a slug. but oh well. it's better now and i've got loads of homework i keep putting off.
i've realized a lot of things lately. and i can hardly get over how in denial i was. but maybe it can be fixed? i hope eventually it can be fixed. it seems to go around in circles on it's own anyway... so who knows?
i've been having lots of nightmares lately. about people dying. seeing it. hearing it. it's really freaking me out. and i really hope it stops.
i don't really know why i update... nothing really grand or funny or terribly important ever goes on.
well i mean. nothing that i feel everyone needs to read about.
and there are important things going on. everyday. but it's tiring thinking about it. and even more so talking about it. and i don't really think anyone genuinely cares anymore so whatever.
i miss my friends.
i promise i'm going to try and be better.
just a little more time. i promise.
goodnight friends.
i opened at work saturday. which means i was up at 4.30 on a terrible night's sleep. it was a long day. but i got to work with some of my favorites so it was okay. really busy. and i almost snapped a couple of times. but it was as good as working from 6am - 3pm on a saturday can be i suppose.
today i woke up with probably the worst headache i've ever had. i couldn't function. and i could only get out of bed twice for like five minutes at a time. so i basically stayed in bed all day. i feel like a slug. but oh well. it's better now and i've got loads of homework i keep putting off.
i've realized a lot of things lately. and i can hardly get over how in denial i was. but maybe it can be fixed? i hope eventually it can be fixed. it seems to go around in circles on it's own anyway... so who knows?
i've been having lots of nightmares lately. about people dying. seeing it. hearing it. it's really freaking me out. and i really hope it stops.
i don't really know why i update... nothing really grand or funny or terribly important ever goes on.
well i mean. nothing that i feel everyone needs to read about.
and there are important things going on. everyday. but it's tiring thinking about it. and even more so talking about it. and i don't really think anyone genuinely cares anymore so whatever.
i miss my friends.
i promise i'm going to try and be better.
just a little more time. i promise.
goodnight friends.