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[alvire]

"Use your heart as a rudder, faith as a compass, and a blanket for a sail."

The sky tonight was gray. No clouds. No stars. Not even grey. Just gray.

I'm going to go reclaim some sleep. 10 hours over the last three nights does not make for good sleeping patterns, but I will still try.

There's someone who shouldn't be cold tonight.

Comments

[ahra]

wow... a post... hey i thought i was the jewish mother! oh wait im the con mommy... ok but still you never call you never write and all i hear coming from you is acen this and acen that... don't you think i have other things than acen to talk about like... ok so i have no life right now but i can listen to yours... call me!

[alvire]

Listen to mine? You don't want it over the phone. You want it in-person, not in sleep-dep mode, and after I've had a chance to get away from it for a second. Talk about your increasing guilt (and not from you)...

Also, you probably don't want to hear it when I've got quite so much alcohol in my system. Gah, I needed this. But I didn't need this.

[ahra]

wait which didn't you need? me or the alcohol?

[alvire]

I didn't need the thing that was distressing me at that moment. Still is stressing me, but to a lesser degree. I did need the alcohol that night. And things are looking up, more. (Note to self: dependence on alcohol for stress removal is a bad pattern. Attempt to find alternate method. Damn there being no roads around here that are good for driving. And no friend that's good for taking on those nonexistent roads. Well, maybe I have one or two. But not as good as taking you or Jasmin, say.)

[ahra]

well then you know what you must do... come HOME! god come home and see ninja and jasmin and me and all the other crazy fucks and have a good time with us on new years...(wink wink... nudge nudge...)... just get the f*** back in town!

[alvire]

I'm trying. Oy, believe me, I'm trying. But I just can't get back until the 30th... it's a family thing. But the upshot is that this winter break fulfills my family stuff for a year or something like that...