so long....farewell...
After much hemming and hawing (?) I have decided to get rid of my livejournal. It only brings back bad memories, and I am trying to move forward in my life.
I am working on eradicating the negative things around me--and in me...and so far I have been amazingly successful. I don't want to be constantly reminded of past mistakes and troubles. They don't make me feel better as a person. I am grateful for the lessons I have learned, but it's time I stop punishing myself for things I cannot control or change.
I am in a far better place than I was a week ago. I don't need a guy in my life to feel loved and important. I love myself with or without one. I will be happy with or without one. And I only want one who believes in me, who has faith in me, and doesn't give up on me. How can I be expected to change or love myself when I am not loved unconditionally in the first place? That is not the kind of marriage/relationship I want to be in. If I can only be loved by behaving in a certain way, that's not love. I am not the only one who has some growing up to do.
I am excited for my future. The possibilities are endless. I have never felt stronger or more alive than I do now. I can be and do whatever I want. I am not going to shape myself to fit someone else's mold. I'm worth more than that. I can finally see that I am of value. And if you can't see that, I don't need you anymore.
Goodbye past, hello future!
I am working on eradicating the negative things around me--and in me...and so far I have been amazingly successful. I don't want to be constantly reminded of past mistakes and troubles. They don't make me feel better as a person. I am grateful for the lessons I have learned, but it's time I stop punishing myself for things I cannot control or change.
I am in a far better place than I was a week ago. I don't need a guy in my life to feel loved and important. I love myself with or without one. I will be happy with or without one. And I only want one who believes in me, who has faith in me, and doesn't give up on me. How can I be expected to change or love myself when I am not loved unconditionally in the first place? That is not the kind of marriage/relationship I want to be in. If I can only be loved by behaving in a certain way, that's not love. I am not the only one who has some growing up to do.
I am excited for my future. The possibilities are endless. I have never felt stronger or more alive than I do now. I can be and do whatever I want. I am not going to shape myself to fit someone else's mold. I'm worth more than that. I can finally see that I am of value. And if you can't see that, I don't need you anymore.
Goodbye past, hello future!