Coma
Im am bored, and alone. I have my family around me, but i want to go out. I want to live. But i know it will be a while untill that happens and till will happen gradually. For now im in a coma. Hearing everything, seeing everything unable to do anything about it or join them. I hear my friends having fun and sorrows, and i see them in their glory. I wait and see. I know this isolation is for the best, lets me grow deeper, and not become like those shallow people outside. i have been stuck inside for a while now. I went out yesterday just for the fuck of it. First time thrift shopping, bought a shirt. if you can call it that. barely covers anything. half the family liked it the other didnt. and then i realized i will not have the same style as them. so i might as well get things that I like. i went to the park. listened to my new ipod i got for new year's. i sat for a lil while, walked on fences, then went to the ballpark thingy, saw three mexicans or something playing soccer, and some two kids, students probably from seth low. i figured i had an audience, and climbed the tall fence to get ontop of the curve of where the batter is supposed to hit the ball. lol i couldnt hear shit because of the music but i bet they were saying some shit. i saw them all staring. when i got on top and just stayed there staring, i realized i had cut my hand and was pressing it against the rusted pipe. bleh i started to climb down, my ipod fell. into the dirt i jumped in after it. landed with my palm into the dirt. so its possibly infected. though i doubt it. lol scratched up my ipod in two days. but it was fun i had found my spot in the park. on top of that fence. tomorow im gunna go and do some stupid shit for school. by the way i realized i have been slowly growing farther apart from my friends in school... imbecoming like my big brother. im afraid. im bored and alone.