bored...and bored
housing update: i got into the quad that i wanted with people that i'm pretty sure i'm gonna like. i just hope the boys don't get stuck on alumni.
so today has been pretty boring and dull. i've come to the big realization that i need more friends. i guess i've tried to ignore this issue, but i didn't care then. now i do. without my boyfriend, i feel friendless. all of my friends are on state quad and if i'm not gonna end up seeing him, i don't want to make the trip, also cause i'm a lazy ass....and i don't know what i'm gonna do next year when kaitlin is on freedom and if the boys end up on alumni...or possibly dutch, which wouldn't be that bad. and i feel this way when i'm home too. if my friends aren't around, evan is the only resort of friends that i have. my new year's goal (despite it being 4 months late) is to make new friends in the new school year. i hope this suite thing works out ok, that i become friends with these girls.
i'm not being optimistic. about anything. i'm being just not myself at all. i don't know what else is wrong with me. so many things. i can't figure out what's bothering me. for the past 2 days, i've just been besides myself...i don't know if that's the correct way to phrase this. i haven't been my happy, bubbly, crazy, lunatic self. i feel almost discontent with myself. i want to cry right now and i don't know why. is it ok to just let out a good cry for no reason?
i want my friends here with me. i want to just go away.
so today has been pretty boring and dull. i've come to the big realization that i need more friends. i guess i've tried to ignore this issue, but i didn't care then. now i do. without my boyfriend, i feel friendless. all of my friends are on state quad and if i'm not gonna end up seeing him, i don't want to make the trip, also cause i'm a lazy ass....and i don't know what i'm gonna do next year when kaitlin is on freedom and if the boys end up on alumni...or possibly dutch, which wouldn't be that bad. and i feel this way when i'm home too. if my friends aren't around, evan is the only resort of friends that i have. my new year's goal (despite it being 4 months late) is to make new friends in the new school year. i hope this suite thing works out ok, that i become friends with these girls.
i'm not being optimistic. about anything. i'm being just not myself at all. i don't know what else is wrong with me. so many things. i can't figure out what's bothering me. for the past 2 days, i've just been besides myself...i don't know if that's the correct way to phrase this. i haven't been my happy, bubbly, crazy, lunatic self. i feel almost discontent with myself. i want to cry right now and i don't know why. is it ok to just let out a good cry for no reason?
i want my friends here with me. i want to just go away.