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Look for all you happy people out there who like bash others when they are down. This jurnal is not for you. From this point on if anyone posts anything in MY journal that I do not like. You will be banned. And I can already guess who those people will be. So if you want to get banned just post one more thing. All of yourcomments will get deleated
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you could be right at 40... i know i loaned you for the draft... but i thought i helped on the previous one... or something. but 40 i guess is right... i wont complain. and andrew im pretty sure still owes me 10.
keaton... you did help me... ive saved entries of us talking. you do and did and have helped me there. i understand your upset over that. what i am refering is you wouldnt accept help. youd ask me to open up and talk. i did. why wouldnt you. i wanted to help. but you would shun me away. complain about everything in your journal but wouldnt talk to your friend about it. i understand this is your journal to post whatever... but you wouldnt let me help. yet you constantly cried for it on livejournal. you would search for pity... you wanted attention. you got it... you got the attention. but did it help? course not. now you got yourself stuck. youve made things worse for yourself. youve made your friends enemies. youve made us feel sorry for you and gave you the attention you sought. but it didnt help, only hurt. it annoys me to hear you whine on livejournal but refuse any help. "Fuck you all"... what the hell man. what did we do to deserve it.
you brought this on yourself. it all started when you started feeling down. you wouldnt open up, even when we wanted to help. you complained and threatened suicide. we gave you attention but what. you got the attention but no, it went wrong. why wouldnt you open up? you helped me. i remember your comments you said to me. how i wouldnt understand...
i dont understand. i dont understand why you would do this to yourself. i mean, part of me does. i do it too myself. i dont forget the bad things... i make myself remember them. i hold grudges. that hurts me in the long run. i know what its like to make a roadblock in your life. but, youve helped in ruining your friends? why???? you had life so much better than what you do now. you may deny it or say you dont care but you do. you wouldnt still keep posting or signing on aim, or talking to people. you care when you say you dont. i know that... i did it to my interests for ashlie... but they came back. i think you care for your friends... you dont want to. i dont know why but just...
youve dug yourself a hole you cant get out of. ill be waiting at the top of it when you find a way out man. i can and will give a helping hand... you just need to admit... and want to be helped.
i am here man, i want my old friend back. ive always cared for my friend... but this new person is not my friend keaton. i want him back. and i want him back, i want to help you.
Sincerly,
Matt
*banning me will only show me that you dont care... that you want to run. that you are afraid. my friendship is in your hands... make your decision*
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