Feeling betterrrr!!
Like, about a thousand times better. :)
Becca came over with Samuel yesterday, and we went to the park and to the mall. The weather is GORGEOUS, so we're taking advantage of it while it lasts. I love the sun, but I do not love when it scorches the heck out of me. Which is most days, but not today. ^w^
The F texted me earlier today and said "Is it February yet?" I have myself said similar things to him before, like "Can't we just get it over with?" If it were February, we would be much closer to being married. If it were February, all of the decisions regarding the wedding would have been made, and we could actually get to the DOING, whereas now we are stuck with the PLANNING. If it were February... well, some things might be better, but I have to keep reminding myself that other things might not be better. There's no way to speed up or slow down time, and even though we might think that everything will be all right once February comes, the fact remains that some things probably still won't be quite right. Everyone tries to tell you that your wedding should be your "perfect day"... but I'm not kidding myself. My life is not perfect, and my life will not magically become perfect just because it's my wedding day. However, I have no doubt that it will be a beautiful, enchanted, wonderful day, because that will be the day that I can stop calling him "the boy" or "the F". He'll be my husband, and I'll be his wife.
Yeah, yeah. Gushy gushy. Soak it up.
In other news, I subbed at a middle school today, for the first time since the school year started. It was a breath of fresh air. I forgot how easy middle schoolers are... You know, I've said that to some people, and they look at me like I've just told them I eat Jack Daniels and oatmeal every morning for breakfast. Some people's attitudes are awed/admiring, but most are all like, "Why on earth would you want that? Middle school is nuts!"
Let me tell you, middle school is not nuts. You just have to be at my level of quirkiness to get along with them, and I happen to be just quirky enough. Now, you also have to be tough, to help them get from being elementary school babies to being ready for high school. I don't know if I've really tested myself enough to say that I'm tough enough, but I can tell that I'm getting there. Subbing really has been good experience for me, because it's helped me solidify not only my comfort level in the classroom but also my own 'teaching style,' of sorts. Of course, I have to adapt my teaching style to the class that I'm subbing for, but I don't find that there's a lot of variation throughout the public schools. The thing that still scares me about becoming a classroom teacher (and this is actually something that really hit me today) is that I'm definitely not one of those super-organized people that usually make awesome teachers. Now, I, like you, dear reader, have had many different types of teachers, and some of the most awesome ones were the scatterbrained, organized-chaos types. However, those aren't the types that get hired nowadays. Which is another little nugget of worry that I have to file away, right next to my I-don't-play-piano-as-well-as-I-should nugget.
That's right. I do my worrying by nuggets.
Becca came over with Samuel yesterday, and we went to the park and to the mall. The weather is GORGEOUS, so we're taking advantage of it while it lasts. I love the sun, but I do not love when it scorches the heck out of me. Which is most days, but not today. ^w^
The F texted me earlier today and said "Is it February yet?" I have myself said similar things to him before, like "Can't we just get it over with?" If it were February, we would be much closer to being married. If it were February, all of the decisions regarding the wedding would have been made, and we could actually get to the DOING, whereas now we are stuck with the PLANNING. If it were February... well, some things might be better, but I have to keep reminding myself that other things might not be better. There's no way to speed up or slow down time, and even though we might think that everything will be all right once February comes, the fact remains that some things probably still won't be quite right. Everyone tries to tell you that your wedding should be your "perfect day"... but I'm not kidding myself. My life is not perfect, and my life will not magically become perfect just because it's my wedding day. However, I have no doubt that it will be a beautiful, enchanted, wonderful day, because that will be the day that I can stop calling him "the boy" or "the F". He'll be my husband, and I'll be his wife.
Yeah, yeah. Gushy gushy. Soak it up.
In other news, I subbed at a middle school today, for the first time since the school year started. It was a breath of fresh air. I forgot how easy middle schoolers are... You know, I've said that to some people, and they look at me like I've just told them I eat Jack Daniels and oatmeal every morning for breakfast. Some people's attitudes are awed/admiring, but most are all like, "Why on earth would you want that? Middle school is nuts!"
Let me tell you, middle school is not nuts. You just have to be at my level of quirkiness to get along with them, and I happen to be just quirky enough. Now, you also have to be tough, to help them get from being elementary school babies to being ready for high school. I don't know if I've really tested myself enough to say that I'm tough enough, but I can tell that I'm getting there. Subbing really has been good experience for me, because it's helped me solidify not only my comfort level in the classroom but also my own 'teaching style,' of sorts. Of course, I have to adapt my teaching style to the class that I'm subbing for, but I don't find that there's a lot of variation throughout the public schools. The thing that still scares me about becoming a classroom teacher (and this is actually something that really hit me today) is that I'm definitely not one of those super-organized people that usually make awesome teachers. Now, I, like you, dear reader, have had many different types of teachers, and some of the most awesome ones were the scatterbrained, organized-chaos types. However, those aren't the types that get hired nowadays. Which is another little nugget of worry that I have to file away, right next to my I-don't-play-piano-as-well-as-I-should nugget.
That's right. I do my worrying by nuggets.