"LET LOOSE"
Its hard to understand yourself sometimes. Sometimes I'm conservative, sometimes I just think a lot. I'm always up in my head handling business. Its the software that I have develop during my time in the Marine Corps and what makes me myself. I built this wall that establishes order and demands the things around him will work regardless the risk and chances. If its possible then we can make it happen with will power of the human mind.
I believe we did that on Friday to what I call a successful Let Loose Event that built not only a good time, but memories that will last forever. The Let Loose event lets me know I'm doing something for the community of my peoples, a chance to just show their art, enjoy music, and have a good time. I think thats very hard to achieve but thats always something I always wanted to do.
So I stayed up last night all night writing a paper about King Arthur for my English class. Mang it was so hard to write, because part of me procrastinate because of so many things. Let Loose, stressing about the event, this paper, football, Lakers season about to start, what I have to do to make more money, my acting class whatever. My mind is just going like 100 mph and it doesn't stop. Don't forget I got Crazy Shelley riding on my ass as a girlfriend. LOL
I feel I never get a chance to breath because I have so many projects I want to do, and I have OCD and I want everything to be perfect. I love my friends you guys are great. You guys are all just Craziest Motherfuckers and I love you guys. I don't know what I do with out you guys. If it wasn't for you guys, we wouldn't have a Let Loose Event, you guys made the event. I'm just Agustino but you guys are just amazing.
So who am I? I been working so hard when I was a kid and to be 25 I can honestly feel I know who I am. I'm a hardworking man that has dreams. I feel as a kid I felt so oppress from the system. I wanted to get out of that system, which was my parents mind you. And I went to a different system. An institution, which was the Marine Corps. I mean I jump from one shit hole to another. I loved the Corps, and if somebody ask me if I do it again, with the concept of all the things I know, I just know I would do it again, in a heartbeat. No regrets.
I just can't live with regrets, I love life, and life is too fucken short to be worrying what others think about me, I just need to do my shit, and do good.
Its been a while since I felt this free, and liberated, like dropping my fucken pack after I just finish the "Crucible." Oh mang, for once I can stay up and rest and play games. I just love games, especially Role Playing Games. It feels like when I play those games, I'm always learning, learning about life, learning about myself, and ultimately use that as a tool, and learn from it. Experience it, and appreciate the literature, or the storyline of the game. Like movies, I feel I can escape and I can just get a taste of fantasy.
Life overall has been so good to me. I feel I know who I am and I feel thats something very difficult to achieve. So many people have a hard time to find who they are and it took me this long to realize who I am. I'm just a fucken Artist, and I love the ARTS! Its just that simple and thats why I love the certain things that I like. Games, the arts, movies, acting, writing, poetry, stories, literature, manga, history, politics, KNOWLEDGE! I feel like I want to conserve the arts. I never what it to ever go away. I feel that if we lived in a world that took that away, I truly believe I do not want to live in that world. I wouldn't know what to do, like being lost in a labyrinth in the mind, trapped forever and you yourself do not understand why your not happy. But a world without art would be a tragedy far greater than any tragedy Shakespeare can write.
Life has been treating me well, mbt been good, and life's been all changed a whole 180 degrees from the Marine Corps days. Its great to laugh about my memories now. Makes me humble to know where I have been and to respect the common folks of how hard we all work to live in this great city we all call the City of Angels. I truly believe that, that this city is full of so much culture that makes us so unique that no other place can compare. Trust me, I been to a lot of places and I still love Los Angles. No matter where I go, Los Angeles will be always be in heart because I will always remember my friends, and thats what matters, the hopes and dreams we shared in the City of Angels...
I believe we did that on Friday to what I call a successful Let Loose Event that built not only a good time, but memories that will last forever. The Let Loose event lets me know I'm doing something for the community of my peoples, a chance to just show their art, enjoy music, and have a good time. I think thats very hard to achieve but thats always something I always wanted to do.
So I stayed up last night all night writing a paper about King Arthur for my English class. Mang it was so hard to write, because part of me procrastinate because of so many things. Let Loose, stressing about the event, this paper, football, Lakers season about to start, what I have to do to make more money, my acting class whatever. My mind is just going like 100 mph and it doesn't stop. Don't forget I got Crazy Shelley riding on my ass as a girlfriend. LOL
I feel I never get a chance to breath because I have so many projects I want to do, and I have OCD and I want everything to be perfect. I love my friends you guys are great. You guys are all just Craziest Motherfuckers and I love you guys. I don't know what I do with out you guys. If it wasn't for you guys, we wouldn't have a Let Loose Event, you guys made the event. I'm just Agustino but you guys are just amazing.
So who am I? I been working so hard when I was a kid and to be 25 I can honestly feel I know who I am. I'm a hardworking man that has dreams. I feel as a kid I felt so oppress from the system. I wanted to get out of that system, which was my parents mind you. And I went to a different system. An institution, which was the Marine Corps. I mean I jump from one shit hole to another. I loved the Corps, and if somebody ask me if I do it again, with the concept of all the things I know, I just know I would do it again, in a heartbeat. No regrets.
I just can't live with regrets, I love life, and life is too fucken short to be worrying what others think about me, I just need to do my shit, and do good.
Its been a while since I felt this free, and liberated, like dropping my fucken pack after I just finish the "Crucible." Oh mang, for once I can stay up and rest and play games. I just love games, especially Role Playing Games. It feels like when I play those games, I'm always learning, learning about life, learning about myself, and ultimately use that as a tool, and learn from it. Experience it, and appreciate the literature, or the storyline of the game. Like movies, I feel I can escape and I can just get a taste of fantasy.
Life overall has been so good to me. I feel I know who I am and I feel thats something very difficult to achieve. So many people have a hard time to find who they are and it took me this long to realize who I am. I'm just a fucken Artist, and I love the ARTS! Its just that simple and thats why I love the certain things that I like. Games, the arts, movies, acting, writing, poetry, stories, literature, manga, history, politics, KNOWLEDGE! I feel like I want to conserve the arts. I never what it to ever go away. I feel that if we lived in a world that took that away, I truly believe I do not want to live in that world. I wouldn't know what to do, like being lost in a labyrinth in the mind, trapped forever and you yourself do not understand why your not happy. But a world without art would be a tragedy far greater than any tragedy Shakespeare can write.
Life has been treating me well, mbt been good, and life's been all changed a whole 180 degrees from the Marine Corps days. Its great to laugh about my memories now. Makes me humble to know where I have been and to respect the common folks of how hard we all work to live in this great city we all call the City of Angels. I truly believe that, that this city is full of so much culture that makes us so unique that no other place can compare. Trust me, I been to a lot of places and I still love Los Angles. No matter where I go, Los Angeles will be always be in heart because I will always remember my friends, and thats what matters, the hopes and dreams we shared in the City of Angels...