I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married.
"Let's get fucked up and die. I'm speaking figuratively of course."
But I'd kinda like to get fucked up. I hate when people use that phrase and always talk about getting messed up. But I never do. The last time I drank was like, a month and a half ago, and before that it was my birthday almost 5 months before that .
I think I deserve it.
I'm in that destructive brain phase/faze. I want to get into a fight, I want to break something, ruin something beautiful, bleed, general havoc. I've been on edge and half way comfortable and in the same spot same routine/rut for too long. I'm antsy and anxious, I need something to change or to change something myself.
How about I wake up tomorrow Lil Wayne? That'd be okay. I like him. Or wake up in a new life. Not someone else's. It'd be mine, just different. Maybe then I'll fully realize what I have or really want here.
But I'd kinda like to get fucked up. I hate when people use that phrase and always talk about getting messed up. But I never do. The last time I drank was like, a month and a half ago, and before that it was my birthday almost 5 months before that .
I think I deserve it.
I'm in that destructive brain phase/faze. I want to get into a fight, I want to break something, ruin something beautiful, bleed, general havoc. I've been on edge and half way comfortable and in the same spot same routine/rut for too long. I'm antsy and anxious, I need something to change or to change something myself.
How about I wake up tomorrow Lil Wayne? That'd be okay. I like him. Or wake up in a new life. Not someone else's. It'd be mine, just different. Maybe then I'll fully realize what I have or really want here.