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So I'm sick of all the bullshit that's going on with my life. I finally rid myself of some negative influences and I also have some positive influences coming into my life. I have to talk with Joe tonight. He's been acting like such an asshole lately that I just want to smack him or spit in his face or whatever. I think I just need a good fuck. Can't tell you how annoyed I was wednesday and yesterday. She finally got to all of us. She text messeged Matt....Matt got fucking annoyed and basically told her to go fuck herself. Bravo!! Although...I have realized now that I've become the one person I hate the most...I'm a bitch. I've come to terms with that...I AM A BITCH!!! Oh well...we can't always be perfect. I'm sure she hates me the most anyway, since I was her friend. There was somethin pulling me away from her anyway...and no Becky...if you are by chance reading this which I highly doubt, it wasn't because of Sam, Alia, Brian, or Matt. I just clicked with them better. You can call me a bitch if you want, you can say it to my face even, and I won't deny it. I am what I am.
Can't wait to go home tonight. I'm going back to Islip Terrace tonight....after my talk with Joe. It sucks though, cause I won't be able to work any magick in the house. I don't have candles there or anything...well except my stones. I really feel the need to do a cleansing spell and a petitioner's spell. There is so much negativity in this bulding right now and it feels like it's eating me alive.