where my boyz at??!?
seriously tho. where dey at? or at least just one little guy, who can cuddle at night, and cover the day with glitter and songs. someone to play music with, and learn about new things? sometimes i just get a little lonely if you cant tell. i miss being all snuggles with someone. i got someone in mind but i am afraid of hurt. i dont want a boyfriend cause of hurt. uhg whiney whine. i got me a great place to live tho, all the way out in ventura county, just outside the boarder of LA county. i got me a room, a hot tub, a space to use at a studio and not to mention great roomates. (SAM AND DAVEY WOO!) i hope we can keep this place up. i dont have new photos yet, i have to charge my camera battery, but i left that in pasadena where have to go to pick up my new bank card cause i lost my old one. never start a tab at a bar if you know you are going to be drunk. i am trying to get my creative juices flowing, but they seem to be more active when i have a muse, or a sweet little guy pushing me along. i dont want to have that kind of dependency. little things here and there keep bringing up old memories i feel nostalgic for. i am in a strange spot and i am still making art about girls getting their periods and being pissed off about it. i want to do a big mural at an art show where two pissed off rival girls are terrorizing the viewers with their no bra under shirts and bloody underwear and walking around like they are giant monsters leaking blood onto their socks. hairy legs, long flowey hair, and pissed off. i guess i can never get this anger to go away about how i was never told what was going to happen to my body and how you gotta keep it up if you want to be attractive, even tho youre bloated and nasious with dark circles under your eyes and clogged pores.
my friend alex from germany is coming out in less than two weeks. it will be nice to see him cause weve been successfully keeping in touch and im interested to see what its like when he hangs out with my friends. were planning to do a lot of things like see good shows and go to vegas and house parties. i want to show him how we live it up out here.
but anyway, i could just use some nice long hugs, and a makeout sesh every once and a while. wish me luck.
allison butt smith
my friend alex from germany is coming out in less than two weeks. it will be nice to see him cause weve been successfully keeping in touch and im interested to see what its like when he hangs out with my friends. were planning to do a lot of things like see good shows and go to vegas and house parties. i want to show him how we live it up out here.
but anyway, i could just use some nice long hugs, and a makeout sesh every once and a while. wish me luck.
allison butt smith