funk and void
do you ever get in one of those funks that is completely unexplainable and incurable and creates a frustrating spiral of death out of nowhere?
yeah thats how i feel right now
i dont know when it started or why, but ive just been in a foul mood for quite a while, i thought maybe it was cause i wasnt getting enough sleep, and so is tarted sleeping more and it didnt really fix it
i dont know, i just feel liek theres this giant void in my life
occassionally people and things make it disappear and thats so nice, but it seems all too temporary
its really starting to piss me off, normally i can tolerate peoples total and utter stupidity, and just bend over and take it in the ass daily, and become peoples doormats, but not lately, lately i want nothing to do with it, im sorry
its 730am, im supposed to have class really soon, but i dont think im going to go, im too damn tired, it took me entirely too long to write this piece of shit paper, and the homework cindy said would be easy was impossible for me to wrap my mind around, once i did it was really easy, but that took a while
i dont know why but this whole chromaticism has made my mind really sluggish, all of it from the very start, and the further we get into it the slower my mind works, the last two theory classes i havent been able to understand what cindy was talking about when she was teaching us and i had to go home and look at examples and read the book forever before i got it, and that annoys me
i talked to brian post and told him i was no longer interested in composition, at least for now, and that i just wanted to concentrate on performance, and he said that was smart and that its good that i figured it out now cause he said most people dont and then they fail at life
i dunno though
i think i fail at life
bah
everything sucks
im gonna sleep for an hour
yeah thats how i feel right now
i dont know when it started or why, but ive just been in a foul mood for quite a while, i thought maybe it was cause i wasnt getting enough sleep, and so is tarted sleeping more and it didnt really fix it
i dont know, i just feel liek theres this giant void in my life
occassionally people and things make it disappear and thats so nice, but it seems all too temporary
its really starting to piss me off, normally i can tolerate peoples total and utter stupidity, and just bend over and take it in the ass daily, and become peoples doormats, but not lately, lately i want nothing to do with it, im sorry
its 730am, im supposed to have class really soon, but i dont think im going to go, im too damn tired, it took me entirely too long to write this piece of shit paper, and the homework cindy said would be easy was impossible for me to wrap my mind around, once i did it was really easy, but that took a while
i dont know why but this whole chromaticism has made my mind really sluggish, all of it from the very start, and the further we get into it the slower my mind works, the last two theory classes i havent been able to understand what cindy was talking about when she was teaching us and i had to go home and look at examples and read the book forever before i got it, and that annoys me
i talked to brian post and told him i was no longer interested in composition, at least for now, and that i just wanted to concentrate on performance, and he said that was smart and that its good that i figured it out now cause he said most people dont and then they fail at life
i dunno though
i think i fail at life
bah
everything sucks
im gonna sleep for an hour