missing my girl.....
i saw that movie tonight, American Wedding, its sounds really pathetic to say that it made me miss my girlfriend an extreme amount. Behind all the crude jokes and obscene language, which i personally find hilarious, cause i do the same things, and use teh same language, i saw those two people getting married. It was the happiest time of their life, or they tried to make it seem that way, the movie director or whatever, and to be honest, thats the way i feel everyday. This girl that i call mine, Sarah, is so amazing, every thing i do, makes me think of her, the stupid shit i do makes me feel ten times stupider cause i know that there is always someone who wouldnt do that, and the shit i should do, but am to lazy to do, makes me feel like a fucking retard cause i know that there is someone who is not too lazy to do them, and the lack of creativity i have makes me feel like a fuck up, because i know there is always someone who will have better ideas than me, and could show her a better time than i could. But at the same time, when i am with my Sarah, i dont feel these feelings of failure, i feel like i am on top of the world, cause you make me feel like that. I dont know how you feel about all the shit i just mentioned, i only hope that you can look through it, and see that you mean the world to me, and i would be the most pathetic case with out you. I love you sarah, i cant wait till wednesday. wait..... what are we doing....... fuck