UNBREAKABLE
I’m so tired of working up to other people’s standards. Why can’t being myself be enough? I’ve been delaying writing my thank you scholarship letters for a few reasons. One, I’ve procrastinated a bit and slid this item to the back burning while I “took care of the rest of the kitchen”, and two, how do you write a thank you LETTER? Not a note, but a letter?
Sometimes I think I am too tough on myself, sweating through all of these summer courses, breaking even or still running red after every paycheck, now, granite my family does give me money, but ever since I graduated high school, it has always felt uneasy accepting so much of it. yet this is how most of the rest of the county lives. That, or they aren’t literally Little Miss TOO Social or Little Miss Executive of Student Government… when I was at South Coast yesterday having lunch with Ashley… I actually missed spending obscene amounts of money on myself… I miss going to South Coast with “the crew” and shopping til we dropped. That feeling of knowing it was your money you were spending and that you could afford the things you’d like to have. I understand my priorities are school, and my job makes very little money, it only offsets some of my standard expenditures, mostly consisting of gasoline for transportation and coffee to stay alive at school.
I’ve got promises and grades to keep, and oh, so many miles before I sleep…
This is my last week of cognitive psychology. I got a b on my quiz today. I have one paper to write this weekend for that class and then one make up quiz and then the final… which is insanely out of proportion to the rest of the class, but whatever. I’ll be fine. I always am.