self-inflicted misery
update on dad's words of wizdom: rehab is for quitters.
thanks dad, i really appreciated that one. if i ever have a drug addiction, i'll make it a point to never seek professional help. its endless. he tells me that his idea of a fun vacation is loadin the cooler with a few cases and he's set. o. listen to this one. i said i dont smoke for some reason or another, it just came up in conversation. and he goes "nothing legal anyway, right?" like he wants me to be a stoner.
its this inner conflict that gets me. because he is the coolest when hes not talking about how cool he was gettin drunk and high in high school. if it was so great back then, why is it such a crime to do it now? because its bad for you. and i, being the more mature person in this relationship, know better. its fucking bull shit because then he goes out and does all these great things for me like buying me a brand new PRS when i know for a fact he doesnt have the money for. its like a war with myself because i get all pissed off at him for being such a bad influence on me. but then i hate myself because he's so good to me after all. thats where the problems come in because when u hate yourself, u wanna do bad things.
bad things are good at first, but it only gets worse. everyones got their own life and their own ways of dealing with everything. i guess thats what makes this life interesting.
its getting old.
thanks dad, i really appreciated that one. if i ever have a drug addiction, i'll make it a point to never seek professional help. its endless. he tells me that his idea of a fun vacation is loadin the cooler with a few cases and he's set. o. listen to this one. i said i dont smoke for some reason or another, it just came up in conversation. and he goes "nothing legal anyway, right?" like he wants me to be a stoner.
its this inner conflict that gets me. because he is the coolest when hes not talking about how cool he was gettin drunk and high in high school. if it was so great back then, why is it such a crime to do it now? because its bad for you. and i, being the more mature person in this relationship, know better. its fucking bull shit because then he goes out and does all these great things for me like buying me a brand new PRS when i know for a fact he doesnt have the money for. its like a war with myself because i get all pissed off at him for being such a bad influence on me. but then i hate myself because he's so good to me after all. thats where the problems come in because when u hate yourself, u wanna do bad things.
bad things are good at first, but it only gets worse. everyones got their own life and their own ways of dealing with everything. i guess thats what makes this life interesting.
its getting old.