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I feel like I'm fading away sometimes. Like I'm in this constant dream state and nothings ever sure, and It all seems really far away but at the same time screaming so loudly in my face that its sometimes unbearable.
I keep not being able to tell what was real and what wasn't, I'll forget simple things in life as if they were an insignificant dream and believe that something I dreamed happened in reality.
Time Seems to be flowing oddly.
I think Maybe it's a spiritual head lock, though I doubt that makes sense to anyone but me let me explain.
I haven't been able to meditate or make art in quite a while, I can't concentrate on either it's driving me up the wall.
So I've been sleeping A LOT...or at least I think I have I'm not sure. I'll lay down in my bed with my eyes open for hours attempting to sleep but unable to no matter how tired I am, but I always end up waking up.
I feel like something's missing, but that there is so much and one more mistake and I would collapse.
I don't make sense I know it, but it's my journal so shut the fuck up.
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I keep not being able to tell what was real and what wasn't, I'll forget simple things in life as if they were an insignificant dream and believe that something I dreamed happened in reality.
Time Seems to be flowing oddly.
I think Maybe it's a spiritual head lock, though I doubt that makes sense to anyone but me let me explain.
I haven't been able to meditate or make art in quite a while, I can't concentrate on either it's driving me up the wall.
So I've been sleeping A LOT...or at least I think I have I'm not sure. I'll lay down in my bed with my eyes open for hours attempting to sleep but unable to no matter how tired I am, but I always end up waking up.
I feel like something's missing, but that there is so much and one more mistake and I would collapse.
I don't make sense I know it, but it's my journal so shut the fuck up.
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