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Title: Hey Angel, Where'd You Get Those Wings?
Pairing: Frank/Gerard
Author: Emaleigh.
Rating: R
Summary: Gerard's shipped to an All Boys Catholic School in CT. Will he totally lose it? - His brother dead, his life falling apart, who will give him salvation?
Disclaimer: Fake.
Author's Notes: Sorry for not replying all the comments - I've just started year 11 and it's already got on top of me. <3
I miss him.
Maybe, I'm not suppost to be happy. Have you ever thought that to yourself? Because every little thing goes wrong? Well, that's how I feel right now. God hates me. He fucking hates me with a passion. Fucking all mighty huh? My fucking backside.
After my parents left, I was in my room, alone, again. I was morning basically. For 3 whole months, I was morning the death of my brother - who I'd known for a few weeks.
I'd been silent. I hadn't spoken to anyone, not even Ray or Bob after my parents left. I couldn't. I'd just cry.
So, you're probably wondering what's going on with Frank? Well, that isn't going too well. In fact, it's awful.
I was in the libary, reading this book. I don't remember what. Well, it was most likely a book about vampires. I'm not sure, I don't care anymore.
Yeah, so I was reading this book and who turns up? Oh, 'course, Frank.
"Hey Gerard." His voice was bright and bubbley.
I simply looked up from my book, almost glaring at him, then returned to my reading world. "...Okay."
He sat opposite me. "So, how're you holding up?" I put my book down and looked at him.
"How do you think?"
He shrugged. "I don't know, you could be great?" His voice was almost hopefull. Hopeful for what? "What do you want from me?" "...I just thought you might want a friend to be there?"
"Be there for what?"
"....you."
"Why do I need a friend?"
"Well with Mike-" "DON'T SAY HIS NAME!" He semmed taken back. Taken back? I'll give him fucking taken back.
"Look Gerard I just-" "I don't care. I know you like, saved my life when I moved here, but I don't want you here just to pity me. Yes, my brother is gone but I'm fine. I'm inconsolable am I? No, so please, leave me alone."
He left. And since then, I haven't spoken to him. Whatever.
You think that's all I have to say? Pfft, what've you been reading? Fanny nanny's weekly? Is that even real?
I also found out another thing. My mum - she had her baby. Yes, her baby. Not my sibling. She had another boy. I think she called him Soony or Sunny or maybe ickle bunny I aint too sure. She was talking too quick on the phone to me. Oh but that isn't the best part.
Get this, she can't afford to keep me here. It's like...2k a term. So guess what I'm doing. I have to work for the school to live here! I'm a fucking kid! I have to work in the canteen at lunch and then I have to work in the campus coffee shop. I haven't meantioned it because it's shit and the coffee it sells, is...well shit basically.
My mum didn't seem to bothered like. She just brought it up like it was a fucking natural convosation.
"Oh and honey?"
"....yes?"
"We can't afford to keep you there."
"...Wha-what do you mean?"
"We can't pay for you to be there."
"So I'm moving back?" She laughs as if I'd told her the funniest joke in the world. And that hurt "God heavens no dear! You're just going to have to work for your board. The headteach said she would see you tomorrow in her office at 10. Well, baby's crying. Bye Gerard."
The phone died.
I know it's cruel right? Fucking whore!
I stare at the curtain Ray and Bob put up for me....around...his part of the room....
Do I look?
____
I'm looking through his draws. His underwear....ew. Shirts, books, pants...a letter?
....to me.
Gerard. was scribbled on the front in his scruffy chicken scratch handwriting.
I open the flap and pull out the paper. I feel something fall on the floor but I pay no heed.
I unfold the white wood, my hands shaking.
Dear Gee,
Hey, how're you? I guess if you're reading this, I must be dead and you've finally got the balls to look through my stuff. You know, I should bust your balls from heaven but I won't because, you only have one as it is. You're probably wondering how this got here. I asked Ray to put it here. As my wish if I died. He better not have read it the stupid bush. If he has, I'll shave it off in his sleep.
Anyway Gee, I want you to know something. I never forgot you. Not when I was little. You were my idol. Dad gave me a picture of you when I was about 7. I kept it in my wallet all the time. I wanted to be as cool as you, to meet you when I could understand what the fuck you said! And, I did.
I'm sorry I freaked out when I realised you were my brother. I didn't know what to say. I'd thought about it so much. How I could finally talk to my big brother. It didn't go to plan. I freaked and you didn't realise.
I'm glad I got to meet you finally Gerard. I don't know about you but I'm gona miss you up there. No one to rip on for looking like Michael Jackson. Damn.
I love ya Gee, always have and will.
The coolest Brother who ever owned your freakin' soul,
Mikes. x
I don't know what to say.
Pairing: Frank/Gerard
Author: Emaleigh.
Rating: R
Summary: Gerard's shipped to an All Boys Catholic School in CT. Will he totally lose it? - His brother dead, his life falling apart, who will give him salvation?
Disclaimer: Fake.
Author's Notes: Sorry for not replying all the comments - I've just started year 11 and it's already got on top of me. <3
I miss him.
Maybe, I'm not suppost to be happy. Have you ever thought that to yourself? Because every little thing goes wrong? Well, that's how I feel right now. God hates me. He fucking hates me with a passion. Fucking all mighty huh? My fucking backside.
After my parents left, I was in my room, alone, again. I was morning basically. For 3 whole months, I was morning the death of my brother - who I'd known for a few weeks.
I'd been silent. I hadn't spoken to anyone, not even Ray or Bob after my parents left. I couldn't. I'd just cry.
So, you're probably wondering what's going on with Frank? Well, that isn't going too well. In fact, it's awful.
I was in the libary, reading this book. I don't remember what. Well, it was most likely a book about vampires. I'm not sure, I don't care anymore.
Yeah, so I was reading this book and who turns up? Oh, 'course, Frank.
"Hey Gerard." His voice was bright and bubbley.
I simply looked up from my book, almost glaring at him, then returned to my reading world. "...Okay."
He sat opposite me. "So, how're you holding up?" I put my book down and looked at him.
"How do you think?"
He shrugged. "I don't know, you could be great?" His voice was almost hopefull. Hopeful for what? "What do you want from me?" "...I just thought you might want a friend to be there?"
"Be there for what?"
"....you."
"Why do I need a friend?"
"Well with Mike-" "DON'T SAY HIS NAME!" He semmed taken back. Taken back? I'll give him fucking taken back.
"Look Gerard I just-" "I don't care. I know you like, saved my life when I moved here, but I don't want you here just to pity me. Yes, my brother is gone but I'm fine. I'm inconsolable am I? No, so please, leave me alone."
He left. And since then, I haven't spoken to him. Whatever.
You think that's all I have to say? Pfft, what've you been reading? Fanny nanny's weekly? Is that even real?
I also found out another thing. My mum - she had her baby. Yes, her baby. Not my sibling. She had another boy. I think she called him Soony or Sunny or maybe ickle bunny I aint too sure. She was talking too quick on the phone to me. Oh but that isn't the best part.
Get this, she can't afford to keep me here. It's like...2k a term. So guess what I'm doing. I have to work for the school to live here! I'm a fucking kid! I have to work in the canteen at lunch and then I have to work in the campus coffee shop. I haven't meantioned it because it's shit and the coffee it sells, is...well shit basically.
My mum didn't seem to bothered like. She just brought it up like it was a fucking natural convosation.
"Oh and honey?"
"....yes?"
"We can't afford to keep you there."
"...Wha-what do you mean?"
"We can't pay for you to be there."
"So I'm moving back?" She laughs as if I'd told her the funniest joke in the world. And that hurt "God heavens no dear! You're just going to have to work for your board. The headteach said she would see you tomorrow in her office at 10. Well, baby's crying. Bye Gerard."
The phone died.
I know it's cruel right? Fucking whore!
I stare at the curtain Ray and Bob put up for me....around...his part of the room....
Do I look?
____
I'm looking through his draws. His underwear....ew. Shirts, books, pants...a letter?
....to me.
Gerard. was scribbled on the front in his scruffy chicken scratch handwriting.
I open the flap and pull out the paper. I feel something fall on the floor but I pay no heed.
I unfold the white wood, my hands shaking.
Dear Gee,
Hey, how're you? I guess if you're reading this, I must be dead and you've finally got the balls to look through my stuff. You know, I should bust your balls from heaven but I won't because, you only have one as it is. You're probably wondering how this got here. I asked Ray to put it here. As my wish if I died. He better not have read it the stupid bush. If he has, I'll shave it off in his sleep.
Anyway Gee, I want you to know something. I never forgot you. Not when I was little. You were my idol. Dad gave me a picture of you when I was about 7. I kept it in my wallet all the time. I wanted to be as cool as you, to meet you when I could understand what the fuck you said! And, I did.
I'm sorry I freaked out when I realised you were my brother. I didn't know what to say. I'd thought about it so much. How I could finally talk to my big brother. It didn't go to plan. I freaked and you didn't realise.
I'm glad I got to meet you finally Gerard. I don't know about you but I'm gona miss you up there. No one to rip on for looking like Michael Jackson. Damn.
I love ya Gee, always have and will.
The coolest Brother who ever owned your freakin' soul,
Mikes. x
I don't know what to say.