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hmmm...where to begin...pr5om last night...mentioned tht earlier....ummm...haed a weird dream last night...got up lateish...tried going to philly film fest with amanda and the dirty mexican but the place we had to go to was on 40th and walnut and we took nthe train which stops at 13th...and there was no way in hell we were gunna get tere on time walking...so we went to south street and wandered aimlessly i bought 5 pairs of socks and a shirt tht says stupid midgets...i tried tzatziki which was surprisingly pretty good...umm...i also bought a cd by a band who turned poems by a poet i think is amazing into songs i have only listened to 1 and a half songs so far....umm....then i came hom only to discover how much of a bitch i truely am...
so ummm...found out that reguardless of how hard i try to make sure everyone else is happy before i try to make myself it tends to backfire...when it comes ndown to deciding who out of two people to make happy i try to mae the decision tht would make everyone happy in the long run...i try to make it so tht even if someone is a bit upset right now i know tht atleast all will be weint he future..apparently tht is all wishful thinking...because even if i try my best to make everyone else happy someone always ends up getting hurt...i wouldnt even want to think tht im even worth get upset over...i think perhaps it is more the loss of the idea of me than it the actual loss of me tht tends to upset people...i do my best to be there when i am needed even if tht i means tht people only keep me around in the event tht i am needed..i dotn thin is making much sense...all in all i cnat do anyhtng right...i try and try and everything gets screwee up..i try to prevent people from being hurt but someone ends up being unhappy...im done confusing yall...
<3Kasey
so ummm...found out that reguardless of how hard i try to make sure everyone else is happy before i try to make myself it tends to backfire...when it comes ndown to deciding who out of two people to make happy i try to mae the decision tht would make everyone happy in the long run...i try to make it so tht even if someone is a bit upset right now i know tht atleast all will be weint he future..apparently tht is all wishful thinking...because even if i try my best to make everyone else happy someone always ends up getting hurt...i wouldnt even want to think tht im even worth get upset over...i think perhaps it is more the loss of the idea of me than it the actual loss of me tht tends to upset people...i do my best to be there when i am needed even if tht i means tht people only keep me around in the event tht i am needed..i dotn thin is making much sense...all in all i cnat do anyhtng right...i try and try and everything gets screwee up..i try to prevent people from being hurt but someone ends up being unhappy...im done confusing yall...
<3Kasey