another night alone while the one i love fucks her ex.
so i was ditched again tonight by the girl who says she "loves" me. she doesnt love me. she loves melissa. she ditched me to hang out with melissa and get stoned. she promised me she would come over for the night and watch a movie with me.i wasnt anything to her, i wasnt worth shit. ever. the whole year and 3 months ment nothing ot her because she's a selfish druggie bitch now just like melissa. melissa's turned her into a fucking monster. i hate them both. what the fuck did i do to deserve this, besides sitting at home by myself hoping for her to call me or get online or come see me so i can talk to her. i was nothing but a pass-time till the day she and melissa get back together. nothing but a fucking pass-time. fuck you tara, how many fucking times do you have to break my heart to be satisfied? im still fucking looking out the window every 5 minutes. thinking MAYBE JUST MAYBE she'll come. but we all know she wont.