Jan 05, 2012 23:17
Sian placed her head in her hands as thoughts raced through her head. Not only was Sophie more than furious with her but her boss will be now because the project is gone and there was nothing she could do about it. And guess what?! Sian at the moment couldn’t give a rat’s arse about the fucking project at the moment all she was focused on now was her marriage that was slipping off the table. She was not prepared to lose her wife and family because of work, and her stupid mistakes that she had never learned from.
“There’s something I haven’t told you Soph...” Sian trailed as her gaze met Sophie’s. “Go on...” Sophie encouraged still holding her ground. “Sometimes I don’t feel good enough for you Soph, I feel like you deserve someone better, someone who would be able to come home to you every night and make love to you, someone who will bring joy everyday in your life and not anger and hatred.. most of the time I don’t feel good enough for you or the kids because I feel as though I am a failure as a mother.. and a wife.” Sian confessed instant tears rolled down her already soaked cheeks.
“ No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I work my arse off I just don’t feel good enough! Especially for you... and so...” Sian paused her voice cracking. She gazed up quickly at Sophie to see that her eyes were glistening with a few sheets of unshed tears, all she had to do was blink and they would race down her cheek within seconds.
“The Official CEO of the firm is retiring and he offered me the job, however, first I had to complete this last project which is now lying on the bottom of the ocean” Sian referred to Sophie tossing her phone into the water. “I finally thought that this was my chance...to finally feel like I am accomplishing something that is not work-related and feel like I am good enough for you! Because Sophie I really don’t feel like I am at all! I feel like I am a down-grader and I thought that if I could get this job then you would be proud of me and I might have the slightest chance of feeling good enough for you!” Sian cried, tears cascading rapidly down her cheeks as she held her gaze with Sophie whose lip was trembling and she covered her mouth with her hand.
“All I want to do is support our family and especially you, I love you, god! you have no idea how much! and I want you to get anything that your heart desires. I want you to live the happiest life to the fullest extent and I want to be the one who causes that, I want to be the one to make your dreams come true Sophie...” Sian finished as she cried hard, choking on her last set of words.
Sophie was stunned, shaken and heart-broken all at once. The truth had finally come out. Sian wasn’t literally a workaholic she was just trying to live up to the standards she thought Sophie had set for her. To feel good enough for her wife because she thought she didn’t most of the time. Sophie’s heart ached at all the things Sian confessed especially at accusing herself of being a failure as a mother...and a wife. Sophie felt terrible, she had no idea that Sian felt this way...she had no clue.
Sophie quickly took a few steps closer to Sian, taking hold of her face with both hands and smashing her lips urgently onto Sian’s. Sian let the rest of her tears flow as she tasted the saltiness on Sophie’s lips. Their lips moved in sync as Sophie squeezed her shoulders tightly, still keeping a firm hold of Sian’s face as Sian wrapped her arms around Sophie’s waist pulling her in as close as possible. Sian grasped Sophie’s singlet turning her hand into a fist as she held tightly onto her wife. Their tongues massaging one another’s, their breathing picked up and their kissed was filled with heart-ache, everlasting love and aggressive passion. Sophie pushed Sian backwards a bit, Sian having got the message was now lying on the sand with Sophie straddling her and not once did they break the kiss and let reality hit them.
The kiss slowed down as it came to an end. Sophie gazed lovingly into Sian’s eyes. Sian Webster you better listen to me and you better listen good Sophie started taking a deep breath as she smoothed her thumb gently over Sian’s damp cheek.
“You could NEVER EVER be a failure of a mother or a wife, and you...Sian, you are more than good enough for me you are perfect!” Sophie cried out as more tears escaped her eyes. “Don’t you ever think you are never good enough for me honey, because you are, you have given me the best thing I could ever want or wish for in life...2 beautiful children and a wonderful, beautiful, amazing, loving wife.” Sian whimpered as she heard Sophie talk about her, it was pure love.
“ I am so proud of you; you don’t need a job to make me feel proud of you. You have given me everything I could ever want Sian, everything! A wonderful house, a perfect wedding, beautiful children and...you, Sian. All I ever wanted was you, and never do I even think about actually leaving you because I couldn’t bare a second to live without you. Just seeing you makes my heart skip a beat and... “Sophie paused as she gazed even deeper into Sian’s seeing all the love flourish. She tucked a strand of wet hair behind Sian’s ear and continued.
“You already have made all my dreams come true... “Sophie whispered against Sian’s lips as she captured them. Their tongues immediately came into action and Sian laced her fingers through Sophie’s as Sian rolled them over so that she was now on top. Sophie moaned into the kiss making a small smile appear on the blondes face and Sophie could feel it. Breaking the kiss for much needed air Sian quickly pecked Sophie’s lips before gazing into her eyes that were crystal blue.
“Sophie Powers, I am going to spend every day for the rest of my life making you happy” Sian promised as Sophie smiled. “I love it when you call me Sophie Powers, even though our last names are joined” Sophie giggled as she wiped away some of her tears. Sian giggled as well. “I am so glad that I came after you after your little escape to Italy” Sian confessed and Sophie grinned, “I’m glad you did” Sophie answered as she reached up and gently pressed her lips on Sian’s just for a moment.
Leaning back down Sophie took in all of her wife’s features; she had done this well over a million times but yet every time she did the same butterflies would erupt in her stomach. “I love you” Sophie whispered as she raked Sian’s fringe back, she smiled. “I love you too...and I always will” Sian whispered back with a grin as she rubbed her nose gently against Sophie’s.
“Please promise me one thing Sian?” Sophie begged and Sian nodded. “anything” she whispered. “Please don’t lie to me, and talk to me, I want you to talk to me about things ok?” Sophie made her conditions, Sian nodded. “I promise Soph” she promised with a smile as Sophie smirked.
“Ohhh do I need to buy you an new phone?, since yours is swimming with the fishes at the moment” Sophie chuckled and so did Sian. “No I don’t want anything to do with work!” Sian snapped with a massive grin on her face. Sophie smiled, “so you don’t want the job?” Sophie asked knowing that Sian actually wanted the job. Sian gulped. “Well, errmmm...I...uummm” Sian stuttered and Sophie laughed. “Sian I know you want the job and I want to help you get it” Sophie smiled with the light in Sian’s eyes sparkling. “Really? You would do that?” Sian asked hopefully and Sophie smiled but frowned slightly. “Of course I would, you are my wife” Sian Sophie spoke happily. “Thank you Sophie, but I can’t start again otherwise I won’t finish it in time” Sian uttered and Sophie smirked.
“What?” Sian asked confused as Sophie lifted herself up gently pushing into Sian to reach into her back pocket and grab the sim card. Smiling she held the sim card in front of Sian. “This is your sim card honey” Sophie giggled and Sian was shocked but a smile creept onto her face. “You!... God are so cheeky! And the best!” Sian laughed as she kissed Sophie lovingly. Sophie moaned in the kiss as she held Sian’s neck tightly, keeping her close.
“Can you buy me a yacht?” Sophie mumbled into Sian’s neck who giggled.” A yacht huh” Sian raised an eyebrow as she looked down at her adorable wife. “Yeah a really nice one, with a pool, a bar and heaps of room” Sophie giggled as she dreamt of her dream boat. “I’m sure I can do that for you” Sian chirped happily and Sophie’s eyes widened. “Woah Sian I was only joking! “She laughed and so did Sian.” I would never ask you to buy me a yacht! Ppffttt !“Sophie chuckled and Sian smirked. “Well I would have” Sian licked her lips and Sophie giggled. “Yeah right babe” she mumbled against her wife’s lips as she recaptured them in one swift movement.
“We better get back to the kids yeh?” Sian suggested and Sophie nodded with a massive grin plastered on her face. They both stood up, brushed themselves down and then Sian caught Sophie’s hand and entwined their fingers, earning a kiss on the cheek from Sophie. The strolled up the beach, hand in hand, happily on their way up to their kids.
AAAHHHHH I ENJOYED WRITING THIS CHAPTER SSSOOOOO MUCH!
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