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I DUNNO WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH US SINCE LAST NITE. BUT I DO KNOW I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART. I`M TRYIN SO HARD. I CANT TELL U HOW I FEEL IN FEAR OF THE WORST. I`M FALLIN WAY TO FAST AND AS SOON AS I FEEL WE ARE GETTIN SOMEWHERE BETTER FOR THE BEST EVERYTHING TURNS AROUND ON ME AND LAUGHS AT ME IN THE FACE. I WANNA KNOW HOW SOMEONE COULD BE SO CRUDE AND NOT CARE. YOU TELL ME U COULD NEVER HURT ME && I`M UR LOVER. BUT WHAT THE HELL IS THIS SUPPOSE TO MEAN WHEN U TURN UR BACK ON ME EVERYTIME WE GET SOMEWHERE. MY HEART BREAKS. MY EYES CRY. I WANNA KNOW WHAT THE HELL I AM TO U. I LOVED U MORE THAN I HAVE EVER LOVED OR LIKED ANOTHER MAN IN MY WHOLE LIFE. NOW I FEEL U TEARING MY HEART OUT AND SPITTIN IT BACK IN MY FACE AND LAUGHING. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL DONT KNOW NO MORE. WHAT THE HELL DO U FEEL ? I`LL NEVER KNOW U NEVER TELL ME. I NEED U SOOO MUCH BUT DO U NEED ME. DO U WANT ME AS I WANT U. DO U CARE FOR MY FEELINGS AS I CARE FOR URS.

MY HEART IS BREAKING AND I DONT KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS NO MORE. EVERYTIME I FEEL THE HOPE AND AWSOMENESS IN OUR LOVE U TAKE IT AWAY AND ALL I`M LEFT WITH HIS TEARS;PAIN;DEPRESSION;AND RAZOR BLADES;AND LEFT WRIST FULL OF BLOOD AND CUTTS. U MADE ME FEEL BEAUTIFUL AND GORGEOUS WHEN NOONE ELSE HAS EVER MADE ME FEEL THIS BEFORE. I GUESS U WONT EVER KNOW U HAVE THE BEST GERL. I GUESS U`LL NEVER KNOW THAT I TRULY FEEL FOR U. I GUESS U`LL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE. HOW MUCH I WANNA BE WITH U. HOW MUCH I MISS U.
IF U COULD ONLY SEE THE WAY SHE LOVES U. MAYBE U WOULD UNDERSTAND. HOW BLUE MY EYES GET WHEN IM WITH U OR WHEN I SAY I LOVE U I MEAN IT..