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I hate myself for feeling like this!!
You don't deserve my tears.
After all these years.
Why do I put myself though this.
Just seeing you guys kiss.
Brings up the past.
And it makes me feel like an ass.
Why can't I keep hating you??
For all this shit you put me though.
I know I said I was ok with it.
It still makes me feel like shit.
I don't want you to see.
How much this hurts me.
Its hard for me to say what I feel.
It's easier for me to deal.
I did this to me.
Maybe this was how its supposed to be?
The thoughts in my head.
I haven't said.
Crying for so long.
Why aren't the feelings gone??
I thought I was misunderstood.
But after talking to her I'm good.
She's the kind of girl you dont want to leave.
You'll see.
It's not that I like you.
I mean I want to hate you.
But the past is the past.
Even though we did have a blast.
Till things got bad.
Trust me I am not mad.
I am actually glad.
She will treat you good.
Better then I ever could.
I'm slowly getting over you.
It's the best I can do.
For once being in love with you.