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in an effort to stir up the boyant matter so carefully arranged in my skull - i find myself rather pleased with my latest discovery.
i have large amounts of uninhibited serotonin.
and i rather enjoy the feeling of being comfortably unemployed.
facing the troubles of no gas money....and nothing to do but study.
and this is exactly how i want it to be.
there is so much time in a day...
i have spent that time, since i was fourteen, working and going to school.
trying to balance because thats what i thought my parents wanted of me-
then i developed and based my sense of worth on my employment and in return judged
others based on thier employment.
i find myself doing that now....only - in reverse...."you have to go to work? LAMMMMMEE!"
and so all that time that i put into making money gets to go straight to sleeping, learning, and finding myself again (and over trimming my bangs).
ive saved a lot of money in the past couple of months. i have two goals....and a third optional one. get to washington DC and not get stuck in a snow storm....and get to bonnaroo with out mooching too much for gas money.
the third....buying that deliciously digital SLR ive wanted so bad.
if i buy the camera i will have no money to go anywhere....
but i have cameras....and havent been many places.
i especially havent seen the flaming lips.
or the district of columbia.
so i will eat more fish...
sleep in on tuesdays and thursdays
do more homework
spend less money
and see more daylight.