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well they ended. i thought i would be happy, but having her hurt this bad makes me pretty mournful. i mean she said they loved eachother and everything. what happened? guess it was time. who knows. she called me at 3 am and its 330. i was the first she called. it makes me feel really good, knowing she can come to me about that. i could tell there was sumthing wrong we she called me. i just wished she could be happy.
now this doesnt mean i can flirt with her like crazy, im not going too. im not goin to take advantage of this, im not like that. if she wants to date me, im sure she would let me know somehow. as for now, i will wait. like ive been doing.
well turns out my ex gave it up to someone else. she said she did it to get over me, now she says she feels like shit. she told me she didnt know why she did. she told me she is stupid (shes really not) and she said she needs me to help her. so im here for her. but i didnt realize it would hurt so bad, knowing she would have sex w/ someone else. i cryed my eyes out 2 nights in a row over it. i needed a certain someone but she wasnt arounds. i didnt kno what to do. i broke down tonight in front of TJ cause i didnt know what to do. he is always here for me.
I love that guy. he is my blood! he helps me through everything.
But i really needed her tho. she makes me happy, just being aorund her. i hope she doesnt, like, single me out of her life. still wanna be her friend. i dont want her to think that im gonna try and mack on her or anything. i mean i lvoe that girl. so im not gonna hurt her any worse than she already is.
You should never blame yourself no matter what. blame is a word people use just to make themselves look bad. its never your fault, even if you think or know it is. people can change and get over things. they can look past certain things and they can see the you. everyone deserves another chance! you deserve a chance....
so from here. i dont know where or what to do. i cant og back to work til the 9th. i dont go to school. i play guitar. i havent written in a while. maybe with all these things goin on in my life, ill come up with sumthing worth singin about. i know i can write sumthing good.
i might write another for her. maybe ill write one about giving up. idk.
as for me, im off to dream my dreamz. im here for you....i promise.
Ex's and Oh's
now this doesnt mean i can flirt with her like crazy, im not going too. im not goin to take advantage of this, im not like that. if she wants to date me, im sure she would let me know somehow. as for now, i will wait. like ive been doing.
well turns out my ex gave it up to someone else. she said she did it to get over me, now she says she feels like shit. she told me she didnt know why she did. she told me she is stupid (shes really not) and she said she needs me to help her. so im here for her. but i didnt realize it would hurt so bad, knowing she would have sex w/ someone else. i cryed my eyes out 2 nights in a row over it. i needed a certain someone but she wasnt arounds. i didnt kno what to do. i broke down tonight in front of TJ cause i didnt know what to do. he is always here for me.
I love that guy. he is my blood! he helps me through everything.
But i really needed her tho. she makes me happy, just being aorund her. i hope she doesnt, like, single me out of her life. still wanna be her friend. i dont want her to think that im gonna try and mack on her or anything. i mean i lvoe that girl. so im not gonna hurt her any worse than she already is.
You should never blame yourself no matter what. blame is a word people use just to make themselves look bad. its never your fault, even if you think or know it is. people can change and get over things. they can look past certain things and they can see the you. everyone deserves another chance! you deserve a chance....
so from here. i dont know where or what to do. i cant og back to work til the 9th. i dont go to school. i play guitar. i havent written in a while. maybe with all these things goin on in my life, ill come up with sumthing worth singin about. i know i can write sumthing good.
i might write another for her. maybe ill write one about giving up. idk.
as for me, im off to dream my dreamz. im here for you....i promise.
Ex's and Oh's