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i can honestly say today sucked. i was hurt. although..everyday has a new beginning and today must've although sucked which is understandable was as well probably one of the best days ive had in a while -
deja a senti (11:06:33 PM): I hope you don't think this is bizarre. Actually I don't care if you think it is at all. I don't know what our friendship is about, I don't know if you could even possibly call what we have or don't have a friendship anymore. I really hope someday we'll be stable friends like the memories. I'm honestly sorry that I don't go to a great school and I know more intelligent words then just any kid, and I guess I'm threatened by you having anyone more important then me. Maybe I'm just an attanetion whore, I don't think so though. I just finished the book I showed you I was reading last time, and that's what inspired me, to finally tell you everything so honestly. I want us to start out new, like we'd just meet eachother, might sound insane but yes that's what I honestly want. I want you to forget everything you know about me, and just image I'm a different person. Maybe this is a cry fro help in finding myself, maybe I don't know. I just don't think I'm myself, maybe we just both changed, but honestly I never thought anything mattered more in my life then out friendship ever, And i really wish you looked at it that way. I was going to write this in paper and send it to you which would've been very odd but I'm not going to. You're always available to think whatever you want about me. But I'm sorry I'm not rich or have great things to offer to you, but I wish you didn't care about any of that stuff. But I honestly don't know what else to say, I'm sorry I can't be jow I'm sorry I can't be julia. I think we should be friends though like we were before, and if we really are in love I don't think that exists, love is unconditional, we aren't.
spill the water (11:18:21 PM): i think what you wrote is beautiful thank you for spending the time to write that. i would like to try the idea and start new, probably because of all the memories i have with you. your really a great being and i cant ever say that i hated you, becos i dont recall hating myself - and i swear we are somehow linked, which sounds very odd. i dont know what we have as of now but i remebered what we had before and i can honestly say that i miss it. i know you told me not to ever thank you but i cant resist. i really apreciate you being so honest with me. honesty and trust is what builds up a friendship..but i cant figure out what happened with us. mabye we justdrifted away by going to seperate schools but i doubt that would be it..it was me and i could admit that much. im the one who ditched you im the one who ruined the friendship - not you. you were always there for me arguement or not. your not perfect and neither am i, but thats what makes us great. i would also like to admit that by the end chapter i had tears in my eyes. again i felt loved and cared for. so lets start off new, tell each other everything, and bullshit about peoples lives. because that is what friends do.
deja a senti (11:06:33 PM): I hope you don't think this is bizarre. Actually I don't care if you think it is at all. I don't know what our friendship is about, I don't know if you could even possibly call what we have or don't have a friendship anymore. I really hope someday we'll be stable friends like the memories. I'm honestly sorry that I don't go to a great school and I know more intelligent words then just any kid, and I guess I'm threatened by you having anyone more important then me. Maybe I'm just an attanetion whore, I don't think so though. I just finished the book I showed you I was reading last time, and that's what inspired me, to finally tell you everything so honestly. I want us to start out new, like we'd just meet eachother, might sound insane but yes that's what I honestly want. I want you to forget everything you know about me, and just image I'm a different person. Maybe this is a cry fro help in finding myself, maybe I don't know. I just don't think I'm myself, maybe we just both changed, but honestly I never thought anything mattered more in my life then out friendship ever, And i really wish you looked at it that way. I was going to write this in paper and send it to you which would've been very odd but I'm not going to. You're always available to think whatever you want about me. But I'm sorry I'm not rich or have great things to offer to you, but I wish you didn't care about any of that stuff. But I honestly don't know what else to say, I'm sorry I can't be jow I'm sorry I can't be julia. I think we should be friends though like we were before, and if we really are in love I don't think that exists, love is unconditional, we aren't.
spill the water (11:18:21 PM): i think what you wrote is beautiful thank you for spending the time to write that. i would like to try the idea and start new, probably because of all the memories i have with you. your really a great being and i cant ever say that i hated you, becos i dont recall hating myself - and i swear we are somehow linked, which sounds very odd. i dont know what we have as of now but i remebered what we had before and i can honestly say that i miss it. i know you told me not to ever thank you but i cant resist. i really apreciate you being so honest with me. honesty and trust is what builds up a friendship..but i cant figure out what happened with us. mabye we justdrifted away by going to seperate schools but i doubt that would be it..it was me and i could admit that much. im the one who ditched you im the one who ruined the friendship - not you. you were always there for me arguement or not. your not perfect and neither am i, but thats what makes us great. i would also like to admit that by the end chapter i had tears in my eyes. again i felt loved and cared for. so lets start off new, tell each other everything, and bullshit about peoples lives. because that is what friends do.