some parts are missing to make this engine run....
I have not written here in quite sometime, which may be a good thing....But i miss wrting down stuff when things get a little rocky. tonight has been one of those nights, where you wish things could go back to a bit easier of a time. It scares me to think im going to be done so fast and then where will I go? I'm also scared that I will be one of the first ones to graduate of my group of friends.....Which doesn't really seem to be my group of friends anymore really....
I feel like now that the four of us have "split up" into three and three... I have to battle for friendships and time, i hate to think like that but i do..and I hate that it bothers me so much....even if the four of us together didnt work, i feel like it worked way better than it does now. the whole situation is overly upsetting on a daily basis, and I constantly cry over it, for no real reason....i just feel like im loosing my friends that were once so close to me. we used to spend everyday together now its hard to find time to even talk on MSN or take our turn to spend with someone on their birthday..... Facebook has turned into a battle ground and I feel so rediculous for being a part of it at all.
Im stupid for letting it bother me so much. I feel like I have been trying to reconnect with everyone but we are all so busy.
If I forget about it all and just stop trying Im going to loose my friends that im desperately trying to hold on to....
I think I'm going a little crazy.... but this is driving me ABSOLUTELY crazy..... sooo thats the way it goes.
Sorry...