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I hate you winter, but I love you Chirstmas season, it makes me feel happy to have what I have.
I have realized that I am quite happy with my friends and who I have chosen to stay in my life..or more like who has chosen to keep me in thier life. it`s all for good reason. I miss some people though, and I wish somethings were different.
I miss the way you were, I miss how much fun we used to have, before life got complicated and a little too busy.
I miss when you were in the same city as me, I miss our fancy lunches on patios with Wine. I want to visit you badly.
I miss our crazy times. I miss you making me feel beautiful and really loved, even just as a friend.
I miss me at 16 with you, how much we connected and really got to know eachother.
I miss you both, and i thank you for being my friends that arnt involved in my life drama, for the most part anyways. We can always have fun, and we can always just be girls together. for that i thank you.
Thank you for being my best friend. whenever we are together it makes me feel like nothing has changed, we are still the crazy girls from highschool who drove around at lunch time gossiping and talking about boys.
Thank you for understanding me so well. I am truely lucky to have you as a friend. we are so supportive of eachother and I have never had such an amazing friendship with someone. You are definitly one of my best friends, because you are such a great friend to me. You care alot about me, and I care alot about you. so thank you for listening...and watching me cry...all the time! haha
Thank you for being the exact friend i wanted, always. since kindergarden you have always been there to take my mind off anything. A childhood friendship is something not easily broken. I like that we don`t have to talk everyday, but when we do talk, its like no time has passed.
and you, Thank you for being that friend that just when I think nothing can really make me cheer up, you tell me something funny, or amaze me with how much you atually do pay attention to my life. It`s hard living far away from eachother and with our school but I know even if we dont talk a ton, we still really care about eachother as friends. I love getting drunk with you or just talking about life with you. thank you for always being there, even if i havnt been there for you always. you mean alot more to me than i thnk you know.
and lastly, my newest and best addition yet, you make me feel alive. I can tell you anything and you listen, even if its girly, you try and understand. You make me laugh so hard and also make me feel like im not alone in this world. you make me think about the future...with you. and although I have done that before, but now its so close i can taste it...it`s scary but so exciting. I couldn`t think of anyone I would want to spend my time with. Its not just an attraction, its not just companionship, its you being my other half, my best friend, and the person I am so in love with its hard to put into words sometimes.