under the red hot moon take a bus downtown to the graveyard shift tonight
I need to get out of this house.
I'm not trying to be pissy but I think I'm going to explode with emotions.
I'm trying to hold back tears and screams right now.
I want to leave.
my uncle is coming today and I kinda don't wanna be here. I love him and everything but if I'm home when they get here, I'm not sure if my mom will let me leave. if I leave BEFORE they arrive, then I should be set cause I don't get service in half of the town, therefore, my mom can't call me to come home.
lately I have been feeling REALLY left out. more than anyone knows.
everyone is up at the drive-in or around that area and I'm stuck here on Blueberry lane. its because I don't have Rat Fink. I have no way around. I'm stuck.
my mom just read part of this. =/
she asked me what I was doing today and I said I don't know and she said,
"you want to leave cause you feel trapped? you want to get out of this house?"
"well yeah mom, I'm always here and I don't want to be"
"well, whos fault is that?"
I want to hit her. she hurts so much. and she has no idea how much she hurts me. she does it all the time and she doesn't stop. she makes me feel like shit and walks away like nothing happened.
now I'm not sure what shes gonna let me do but as long as I get out of this house and with my friends.......I'll be happy.
someone please call me.
or comment and make me smile.
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