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ok, I will warn you, I have been in a depressed state for the past few months, so if you don't want to hear me whine you don't have to read this.
Well I went back to visit Spring Hill and Pensacola back in September, the weekend after Labor Day, to pick up my things from storage and to see a couple of friends. The first thing I did when we got to Spring Hill was to see David, my boyfriend, and see if he wanted to go eat lunch with us. Well he seemed happy to see me, and I also finally met his sister, the only member of his family besides his grandfather, that I have actually met. It turned out that he was sick and had already ate lunch, so I told him I would stopy back by campus the next day so we could talk some more. I hadn't seen him all summer and only talked to him a couple of times over the phone and online so we had a lot to talk about.
Well I come back the next day, and he was all serious and stuff, so I knew something was up. Well it turned out he thought we should break up because he felt like an asshole for not staying in touch with me over the summer and it seemed like we grew apart a lot. Besides I was going to a different school at the time and living at home, so it would have been a little difficult to keep dating if we were over 4 hours apart.
And I thought we were doing so well, at least it seemed that way.
Well i found out about 3 weeks ago or so, that he lied to me when we broke up, and the fact that he is an asshole is not the real reason he wanted to break up. The real reason was that he really liked my friend Sarah Jordan, and he asked her out only a couple of days after he broke up with me. So basically he left me for her, and she had the nerve to go out with him, knowing that he dumped me only a couple days before.
And this all happened a few months ago. And for some damn reason, it still bugs me and depresses me. I have never been able to handle extreme emotional difficulty like this my whole life.
See, David is the first guy I have ever really felt like I loved, in a very long time. And I was under the impression that he loved me back. We spent a lot of time together, and we got pretty close. Though we have never had actual sex, we have come pretty damn close, and he is the only one out of the few guys that have been my boyfriend that I have been comfortable enough to be with like that. More importantly, he respected me. And we had several songs that were "our songs" and we had a lot in common too. I remember he used to call me before I went to sleep and sing me "Amy is Amazing" by Paul Gilbert. hahaha
Altogether, I believe we went out for 6 months.
but the thing i am wondering is what makes a guy break up with a girl after they have had so much time together. Is there something I did to make him not want to be with me anymore? And why can't I get him out of my head? I don't want to love him anymore, because I sure don't respect him anymore. What the hell is wrong with me? I am sure I will eventually be over this but I didn't know it would take this long.
And guys, would you ever do this to a girl?
Well I went back to visit Spring Hill and Pensacola back in September, the weekend after Labor Day, to pick up my things from storage and to see a couple of friends. The first thing I did when we got to Spring Hill was to see David, my boyfriend, and see if he wanted to go eat lunch with us. Well he seemed happy to see me, and I also finally met his sister, the only member of his family besides his grandfather, that I have actually met. It turned out that he was sick and had already ate lunch, so I told him I would stopy back by campus the next day so we could talk some more. I hadn't seen him all summer and only talked to him a couple of times over the phone and online so we had a lot to talk about.
Well I come back the next day, and he was all serious and stuff, so I knew something was up. Well it turned out he thought we should break up because he felt like an asshole for not staying in touch with me over the summer and it seemed like we grew apart a lot. Besides I was going to a different school at the time and living at home, so it would have been a little difficult to keep dating if we were over 4 hours apart.
And I thought we were doing so well, at least it seemed that way.
Well i found out about 3 weeks ago or so, that he lied to me when we broke up, and the fact that he is an asshole is not the real reason he wanted to break up. The real reason was that he really liked my friend Sarah Jordan, and he asked her out only a couple of days after he broke up with me. So basically he left me for her, and she had the nerve to go out with him, knowing that he dumped me only a couple days before.
And this all happened a few months ago. And for some damn reason, it still bugs me and depresses me. I have never been able to handle extreme emotional difficulty like this my whole life.
See, David is the first guy I have ever really felt like I loved, in a very long time. And I was under the impression that he loved me back. We spent a lot of time together, and we got pretty close. Though we have never had actual sex, we have come pretty damn close, and he is the only one out of the few guys that have been my boyfriend that I have been comfortable enough to be with like that. More importantly, he respected me. And we had several songs that were "our songs" and we had a lot in common too. I remember he used to call me before I went to sleep and sing me "Amy is Amazing" by Paul Gilbert. hahaha
Altogether, I believe we went out for 6 months.
but the thing i am wondering is what makes a guy break up with a girl after they have had so much time together. Is there something I did to make him not want to be with me anymore? And why can't I get him out of my head? I don't want to love him anymore, because I sure don't respect him anymore. What the hell is wrong with me? I am sure I will eventually be over this but I didn't know it would take this long.
And guys, would you ever do this to a girl?