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chris is on myspace
I didn't know. as soon as I found out I had a feeling I would find something on there that I didn't like. unfortunately I was right.
"Happy birthday gorgeous.....doll face....sexy bodied....lover"
that was a message he sent to some girl. it made me really upset. but what made me more upset was how he reacted when I confronted him. he didn't even care. he acted like I had no reason to be upset. "so what. I went to high school with her." is that supposed to make me feel better? because you went to high school with her? what the fuck does that matter? and then he suddendly got really mad - "what are you doing on there anyway? why are you looking at my shit? give me my computer back!" so of course that made me think there was more on there that he didn't want me to find. so asked him what he was hiding and he backed down. he started yelling some shit about how it's not a big deal and I was overreacting. look at what he said! it's not like I thought he was fucking this girl, I was upset at the fact that he said that to another girl. it hurts. and I had every right to be hurt. and he didn't fucking care. he didn't care that he hurt me. and that hurt even more. and now he's playing xbox like nothing is wrong. if he thinks that it's ok to say shit like that to other girls then I can't trust his judgment. I can't trust him anymore. that's scary.
I'm not crying. maybe that's a sign. maybe it's time to get out of this relationship. I don't feel the love lately.
I didn't know. as soon as I found out I had a feeling I would find something on there that I didn't like. unfortunately I was right.
"Happy birthday gorgeous.....doll face....sexy bodied....lover"
that was a message he sent to some girl. it made me really upset. but what made me more upset was how he reacted when I confronted him. he didn't even care. he acted like I had no reason to be upset. "so what. I went to high school with her." is that supposed to make me feel better? because you went to high school with her? what the fuck does that matter? and then he suddendly got really mad - "what are you doing on there anyway? why are you looking at my shit? give me my computer back!" so of course that made me think there was more on there that he didn't want me to find. so asked him what he was hiding and he backed down. he started yelling some shit about how it's not a big deal and I was overreacting. look at what he said! it's not like I thought he was fucking this girl, I was upset at the fact that he said that to another girl. it hurts. and I had every right to be hurt. and he didn't fucking care. he didn't care that he hurt me. and that hurt even more. and now he's playing xbox like nothing is wrong. if he thinks that it's ok to say shit like that to other girls then I can't trust his judgment. I can't trust him anymore. that's scary.
I'm not crying. maybe that's a sign. maybe it's time to get out of this relationship. I don't feel the love lately.