Day 3
I feel like i'm falling apart.
It's getting harder and harder to stop thinking of her. I'm trying.. I'm trying to occupy myself with other things. Like playing funk songs on the bass guitar and i don't even play bass guitar.. or watching youtube videos for 8 hours straight. Seriously. that's what I did yesterday.. I sat in the same spot for 8 hours trying to make myself laugh.
More than anything I just want to talk again.. good or bad, I need to talk again to know where I stand. She hasn't called at all.. Not anything.. I wonder about her.. What she's doing.. how she's feeling, if she's okay. Maybe there's someone else! Did she ever truly love me!? Maybe some freak accident happened!? That's the kind of crazy you feel after you've been together so long...
I know things weren't perfect, but they were closer to perfect than I've ever been.
Damn it all..
-Doug.
It's getting harder and harder to stop thinking of her. I'm trying.. I'm trying to occupy myself with other things. Like playing funk songs on the bass guitar and i don't even play bass guitar.. or watching youtube videos for 8 hours straight. Seriously. that's what I did yesterday.. I sat in the same spot for 8 hours trying to make myself laugh.
More than anything I just want to talk again.. good or bad, I need to talk again to know where I stand. She hasn't called at all.. Not anything.. I wonder about her.. What she's doing.. how she's feeling, if she's okay. Maybe there's someone else! Did she ever truly love me!? Maybe some freak accident happened!? That's the kind of crazy you feel after you've been together so long...
I know things weren't perfect, but they were closer to perfect than I've ever been.
Damn it all..
-Doug.