I fucked it up
Wow... leave it to me to contribute to fucking up a relationship with my SOUL MATE. Only I could manage to accidently do that over a mutual mis-understanding. Ha! Some sick diety is out there laughing his or her ass off. I wish I could find a nice quiet place to curle into a ball and just cry. Only I could manage to kill something before giving it a chance.
I'm never going to find someone who can stand me... I'm going to be alone for forever and I have no one to blame but myself.