Times they are a changin'

[alphaomegaman]

Well, it's Thursday night, as it is pretty much everywhere in the Western Hemisphere, and I guess you could say that my weekend has begun. I still have one more class tomorrow morning but hey, it's one class, why bother even counting it. My philosophy class was cancelled today as well so I got some extra free time, which I miss. At the same time, I have no idea what to do with my free time. I would love to say that I use it wisely catching up on work, or exercising, or practicing the guitar and fiddle, or simply researching for my ten page midterm due before Thanksgiving, but instead I find myself sitting around thinking. Not that thinking is bad or anything, but it just seems like I could think and do something else at the same time. Lately, things have been really up and down emotionally. There's just so much going on in my life right now and all I can really say is, "God, What's up??" All the expectations that I set up for myself seem to have crashed into the dirt, which I wouldn't consider to be necessarily a good or bad thing. First off, they were MY expectations and I know that God's plans are better, so when my plans fail, that's not a bad thing...although it still stings a little. On the other hand, I know that there are certain expectations, or rather commandments, that I SHOULD do and I haven't. I know that's true for everyone, but there is no safety in numbers when it comes to things like that. I can't say that these "down" times have been bad though. While they may make me feel horrible inside and put me in a bad mood, God has really been teaching me a lot. Through all of this I learned that I rely so much on emotions and the unstable things in this world to guide me, instead of having faith and trusting in the stable, which(who) is God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit. They have also taught me that I really need to just let go of everything that's happened and is happening and just grab hold of the Grace given to me. It feels like I'm beating a dead horse here because this is something that I've heard over and over but it needs to sink in...

...Ok, I just got off the phone and I forgot what I was going to say. Hmmm....

I think you get the jist of what I'm talking about though. Trials = Good

In other news, I finally was able to get in touch with the lady at Blackmon Road (note, the phone call above) and talk about tutoring. So there is progress...

Also, I think I might change my major...not quite sure yet. I don't know what I'd change it too either.

So, there's a lot going on right now.