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i can't fucking sleep...this is starting to really piss me off, every night i lay down, everynight i cannot fall asleep.. everynight i am cold or hot, never comfortable. i cant stop thinking about just thoughts they are comming 100 miles a minute and i cant grab out and reach just even one... the only thing that is really standing out in my mind is that i cannot seem to control cursing.. and thought about the words in my head, how am i supposed to not say them if they wont go away? why do i have to feel, i wish i was numb.....in all ways, i wish everything was always dark and there was no sun and i was always sitting here in my room thinking about being in a landslide ...in the sky is where i end up..why. the only light should be from my computer glowing --------------and i am pissed cause i cant download aim on my crap compter that isnt crap at all i need to stop.. but i want someone to talk to.. this would be one of those cases that your bff wasnt the support you need.