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I'm ok sometimes, but when I don't hear from you what am I supposded to think? I went through an old box today and read alot of the letters you left for me in the morning and some you'd give me durring the day. I can't help but feel bad and cry..it isn't my fault you chose to call then, of all times. Your little jokes don't make things easier either.. You used to do this exact thing to me, call all of the time, then cry when we were talking or when we were together. I was ok with it, I delt with it because I knew it would get better. dismissing me and saying you have to go makes me hurt worse and its going to make you feel more akward.
I don't want this, you know that. I don't want to be a burden, thats what you're making me into. I'm not even mixed up inside, I know how I feel. Maybe thats why I can't grasp this, because my world wasn't tossled around without me being grounded.
You are being two people again, and thats cool, you just need to find the one which is better for you. I remember when you first went to school, you started acting different, you were you the you i knew only when you were here. but when you were at school you turned into a whole new person, you acted different and even on the phone you were different. then, for a while you were normal and only one person, but.. you've changed again. Don't get me wrong, everybody changes, but its you and then someone who oddly enough isn't a stranger to me, but still i dont know him.
come home to me. thats all i can say. thats all i can feel. i miss you!
"you'r bullets through my soul, I'll never let you go"
I don't want this, you know that. I don't want to be a burden, thats what you're making me into. I'm not even mixed up inside, I know how I feel. Maybe thats why I can't grasp this, because my world wasn't tossled around without me being grounded.
You are being two people again, and thats cool, you just need to find the one which is better for you. I remember when you first went to school, you started acting different, you were you the you i knew only when you were here. but when you were at school you turned into a whole new person, you acted different and even on the phone you were different. then, for a while you were normal and only one person, but.. you've changed again. Don't get me wrong, everybody changes, but its you and then someone who oddly enough isn't a stranger to me, but still i dont know him.
come home to me. thats all i can say. thats all i can feel. i miss you!
"you'r bullets through my soul, I'll never let you go"