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it still hurts, and i'm still crying. why do i have to feel these things, how did roles get reversed? why don't you hurt any more? am i that easy to forget..you are two people, you can't be just one, so why do I have to suffer, is this pay back? you never let me go. why did that change? i feel like i hate you and want to tell you that everyday, in that bad way that isnt good.. but unstead i sit here and tell myself i hate me b/c i couldnt help you, and thats what i am gonna call it..help..i hate you and now i feel better i said it. its what i feel every time i think of you, or when i see you..espically when i see pictures of you, all i wanted was to see you before i leave, but no you had to go cheif..so take your drags, i hope they're your last but i know they're not but maybe they will show you something you've never seen..death and what it means to me....