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Friday I went to Bulletproof with jen,it was just boring,we danced and drank and all that and talked to a few people too drunk to really do anything,baah,I don't know,I didn't like it and cried in the taxi home and I feel like such a child,all the time.
I miss this girl a lot:
Saturday I went to the Hoppings (this "travelling fair" from Europe somewhere,it comes every year and is amazing and tacky and busy and full of stalls selling chips and candyfloss and toffeeapples and it just great,I love it) with Susie,Jen,Sarah,Jenny,Jacquie,Felicity and some of their boyfriends. It felt like we were still at school,it was lovely and exciting and good in that fairground way at first and we went on the carousel and a ghost train and the big wheel at half10 when it was dark and you could see all over the site and all of Newcastle far away,it was gorgeous.And ate candyfloss and played hook the duck,and then after a while it just got a bit horrible,and I think people began to remember everything that made us stop talking last year. And I don't know. I'm glad I went though,I think everyone's okay.Susie and me walked home and sat on the kitchen floor till 2 talking about whatever,a lot.
Monday was the exhibition/final show at college,I was really nervous and drank a lot of wine and talked too loudly but it was really good,really really good,and we went out afterwards and got completely off our faces and I talked to all the people I meant to all year and felt completely at ease. I want to be an honest, open and at ease person so badly, I try too hard. All of my friends from school are so polite to eachother,we haven't talked without a smile for about 3 years. I spent most of the night lying on the seats talking to Vicky and Adam and Tom,and I'll miss them all so much.My old art teacher turned up,randomly.
I'm going to Berlin,Prague,Croatia,Bosnia,Hungary and Poland next friday.I hope you're all ok,tell me what to do to help.
I miss this girl a lot:
Saturday I went to the Hoppings (this "travelling fair" from Europe somewhere,it comes every year and is amazing and tacky and busy and full of stalls selling chips and candyfloss and toffeeapples and it just great,I love it) with Susie,Jen,Sarah,Jenny,Jacquie,Felicity and some of their boyfriends. It felt like we were still at school,it was lovely and exciting and good in that fairground way at first and we went on the carousel and a ghost train and the big wheel at half10 when it was dark and you could see all over the site and all of Newcastle far away,it was gorgeous.And ate candyfloss and played hook the duck,and then after a while it just got a bit horrible,and I think people began to remember everything that made us stop talking last year. And I don't know. I'm glad I went though,I think everyone's okay.Susie and me walked home and sat on the kitchen floor till 2 talking about whatever,a lot.
Monday was the exhibition/final show at college,I was really nervous and drank a lot of wine and talked too loudly but it was really good,really really good,and we went out afterwards and got completely off our faces and I talked to all the people I meant to all year and felt completely at ease. I want to be an honest, open and at ease person so badly, I try too hard. All of my friends from school are so polite to eachother,we haven't talked without a smile for about 3 years. I spent most of the night lying on the seats talking to Vicky and Adam and Tom,and I'll miss them all so much.My old art teacher turned up,randomly.
I'm going to Berlin,Prague,Croatia,Bosnia,Hungary and Poland next friday.I hope you're all ok,tell me what to do to help.