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College boy now, nothing that everyone else isn't doing. Total change of pace from what I used to be like, the one who must go against the grain 100% of the time. Not doing so hot this semester, but if all plays out i'm going to bust my ass next semester and make sure that my GPA goes up. I don't think I'll be going into teaching anymore I did my 15 required hours of observation for my introduction to education class and i'm not sure if thats what I want anymore. I'm starting to look more into EMT/Paramedic, or maybe nursing so I can work my way up to an ER nurse or something. I was really good with Combat Trauma medicine in the marines, and I learned my basic medical pretty easily. Still single but maybe that's best for me...afterall it wouldn't be fair to whoever i would be with when i'm still suffering everyday from karianne still. It was so long ago, almost 3 and a half years but it still hurts to drive the same streets, work in the same building, and just know she's somewhere nearby. I dunno if i'm going to do the relationship thing again than I need to not only lose weight(rougly 60lbs would make me happy) but I need to fix my emotional shit and have the time to do this thing fully, because it isn't right to waste some girls time who genuinely cares about me when i'm thinking of other shit and i'm not giving her my full attention or being open with her full time.
I've been smoking a bit of weed lately, seems to help me with sleep alot. I go to bed right away I don't have karianne dreams, and when if i smoke when i'm angry or stressed or depressed everything is cool again. I miss the marine corps believe it or not, i miss being an infantry machine gunner, and now that i'm a corporal it would have been nice to have squad of my own, command them to an exceptional level, see them thrive and survive in combat, kill and do what machine gunners do best, which is to kill mass numbers of enemies, because we fire massive amounts of bullets. being a combat trained marine was amazing, when we trained i did some really cool shit. I slid from ropes out of helicopters at heights from 15 to 50 ft, I learned to drive those inflatable black spec ops boats, which was a very fun and long school. I learned basic mountain survival and warfare, hiked in snowshoes and learned how to butcher and clean an animal to be processed as food in a survival situation. I shot hundreds of thousands of bullets, from M16s and M4's, m240B and m240G, .50 caliber and mk-19 machine guns. I've even fired a rocket launcher. i've traveled a lot of places as well, worn the worlds nicest looking military uniform, and earned every medal that graced my chest.
Being a civilan isn't so bad, but being a prior service military civilian is much better. I fully appreciate the training and person they've made me, and no one yells at me everyday about nothing, or everything, i don't have shave everyday or get a haircut every week. And i don't have to clean those machine guns anymore lol
I've been smoking a bit of weed lately, seems to help me with sleep alot. I go to bed right away I don't have karianne dreams, and when if i smoke when i'm angry or stressed or depressed everything is cool again. I miss the marine corps believe it or not, i miss being an infantry machine gunner, and now that i'm a corporal it would have been nice to have squad of my own, command them to an exceptional level, see them thrive and survive in combat, kill and do what machine gunners do best, which is to kill mass numbers of enemies, because we fire massive amounts of bullets. being a combat trained marine was amazing, when we trained i did some really cool shit. I slid from ropes out of helicopters at heights from 15 to 50 ft, I learned to drive those inflatable black spec ops boats, which was a very fun and long school. I learned basic mountain survival and warfare, hiked in snowshoes and learned how to butcher and clean an animal to be processed as food in a survival situation. I shot hundreds of thousands of bullets, from M16s and M4's, m240B and m240G, .50 caliber and mk-19 machine guns. I've even fired a rocket launcher. i've traveled a lot of places as well, worn the worlds nicest looking military uniform, and earned every medal that graced my chest.
Being a civilan isn't so bad, but being a prior service military civilian is much better. I fully appreciate the training and person they've made me, and no one yells at me everyday about nothing, or everything, i don't have shave everyday or get a haircut every week. And i don't have to clean those machine guns anymore lol