no love poem

[alpaltixilix]

my cheeks heat,
heart beats, knees and feet are weak...
as i sit staring from the valley of the shadow of love.

I climb your body and peer in through the wide window of your eyes.

If i could i would slip inside
and soar through the corridors of your thoughts,
painting portraits of me to hang in your memory.

I'd unpick the capillaries that bind your heart
and stain it with my fingerprints.
Claim it with the essence of me, my love and my identity.

I'd scream my name through the top of your lungs,
so that when you breathe asleep
my name may pass between your teeth.

But my glance hits glass
and your glazed gaze contains a sad reflection.
Silhouetted against a blue moon is a boy in a man costume.

It would cost you nothing to let me in, but i would find fortune.
Perhaps you'd find wealth too, if you had a clue of the truth,
and only knew that i love only you.

my cheeks heat,
heart beats, knees and feet are weak...
as i sit silently in the valley of the shadow of love

Syllables collect dust at the back of my tongue.
My love song is unsung
for twenty long years.

tears near a downfall.

i close the shutters of my eyes incase it pours.
I'm suddenly conscious of all of my flaws,
my thoughts are unsure and there's a worm at my core.

my cheeks heat,
heart beats, knees and feet are weak...
as i sit in solitude in the valley of the shadow of love.

a mere observer.
perhaps i could rise to be a guardian,
but that would be news to me.

maybe my soul longs to be free?
rather than tied to that of another,
and applied to that of a lover.

i will never hide from my brothers
to cry to my mother.
but will i ever be satisfied by my brothers?

i cry to my mother.

my cheeks heat,
heart beats, knees and feet are weak...
as i sit shivering in the valley of the shadow of love.