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I wonder how often you look back, and what you think of when you do. I wonder who's faces you miss, what songs you relate to different memories. If I'm in any of them. If you regret anything. What things you would change, and what your grateful for. But I think you've always been one of those people that tries to live in the present. I never was. I miss everything.
I have horrible timing and Im so pissed at myself for it. I didn't realize how badly I actually want this. I never considered something worth it until now. And I'm excited but scared at the same time that I already missed my chance. So insanely worth it, so desperate to make it happen and I know it totally could but dammmit why does it have to be this complicated. There are so many factors fucking with us. Each time I see you it gets harder and harder for me to be ok with what happened
I have horrible timing and Im so pissed at myself for it. I didn't realize how badly I actually want this. I never considered something worth it until now. And I'm excited but scared at the same time that I already missed my chance. So insanely worth it, so desperate to make it happen and I know it totally could but dammmit why does it have to be this complicated. There are so many factors fucking with us. Each time I see you it gets harder and harder for me to be ok with what happened