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I am back home and I miss my last one, but still way stoked to be home in time for Jordan and Nicks show.
im so tired. I love my friends.
you know what... All these days have felt so odd to me. I have such weird experiences. I see things and I just wish I could understand even partially what they mean. The spirit is so deep. fathomless. like I sink into the sea evertime I pray. I've been having the same dream for a month now, waking up to the same words in my head. I feel uneasy. Whatever once happened is no longer who I am. But sometimes I feel the offer. I hate knowing without the release to voice it. I don't know, I guess it must have been hard for all of them. But why did they feel they had to have me, and why did I ever follow after it? I know some things people carry are evident and they can go either way. Others can grow, but some people are just born with that capacity on them. Even now its hard. There are still somethings that happened that I don't want to think about or that I've never said. Kristina has been such a resting place for me. She's endure more on my behalf then anyone ever had to. So many people have no idea. I wish they knew, just to be aware that its real.
fourteen horses on a red hill
first they move
then they are still
im so tired. I love my friends.
you know what... All these days have felt so odd to me. I have such weird experiences. I see things and I just wish I could understand even partially what they mean. The spirit is so deep. fathomless. like I sink into the sea evertime I pray. I've been having the same dream for a month now, waking up to the same words in my head. I feel uneasy. Whatever once happened is no longer who I am. But sometimes I feel the offer. I hate knowing without the release to voice it. I don't know, I guess it must have been hard for all of them. But why did they feel they had to have me, and why did I ever follow after it? I know some things people carry are evident and they can go either way. Others can grow, but some people are just born with that capacity on them. Even now its hard. There are still somethings that happened that I don't want to think about or that I've never said. Kristina has been such a resting place for me. She's endure more on my behalf then anyone ever had to. So many people have no idea. I wish they knew, just to be aware that its real.
fourteen horses on a red hill
first they move
then they are still