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I can't go through life whining. I used to think that by doing so, I would somehow make things better; In actuality, I would always makes things worse. I would beat around the bush, jump into things too soon, and then drown myself in self-pity, thinking of all the things I could have done differently. I've never been one to take a second and think before doing something, and this has negatively impacted me in several aspects of life. My "recovery" is always the same chain of events: I spend a few days really sad and thinking about what could have been, look at pictures, talk to my friends, and make a lot of stupid mistakes involving alcohol or boys. This never works. Ever.
That's why, I've decided to stop taking things so seriously. I used to think that I attracted assholes. Lately, I've realized that that is not the case. It's my stupid and whiny attitude that drives guys (even the select number who I feel like I have the potential of falling in love with) to treat me the way that they do. I need to stop that, and then maybe my love life will take a different turn.
That's why, I've decided to stop taking things so seriously. I used to think that I attracted assholes. Lately, I've realized that that is not the case. It's my stupid and whiny attitude that drives guys (even the select number who I feel like I have the potential of falling in love with) to treat me the way that they do. I need to stop that, and then maybe my love life will take a different turn.