v*rocrastination for p*endication
I hate myself right now. I have some really good reasons. Trust me. Fuck Fuck. Fuck.
That's all I can say. I'm sorry, I'm not really. Why do I always say that? I've somehow lost my motivation for school. Or, well, I'm just having a hard time forcing myself to do shit--er... do anything. The internet and ebay are too damn distracting.
I can't figure it out. I think I'm just draining myself dry. It's one thing for me to be so utterly confused, but when my friends, all of them, seem to be fucking up too-- in one way or another, for me, this is hell. Not that it isn't hell for everyone else too, I guess I'm just stupid and worry about other people too much, try too hard, think too much. Want to much. Expect too much. Can't handle enough. Here's the proverbial, "I just want to be a bum" statement. Not that I really want to, I just, blah. Why? I don't know.
I was going to keep sleeping, but I had to get something to eat.
That's all I can say. I'm sorry, I'm not really. Why do I always say that? I've somehow lost my motivation for school. Or, well, I'm just having a hard time forcing myself to do shit--er... do anything. The internet and ebay are too damn distracting.
I can't figure it out. I think I'm just draining myself dry. It's one thing for me to be so utterly confused, but when my friends, all of them, seem to be fucking up too-- in one way or another, for me, this is hell. Not that it isn't hell for everyone else too, I guess I'm just stupid and worry about other people too much, try too hard, think too much. Want to much. Expect too much. Can't handle enough. Here's the proverbial, "I just want to be a bum" statement. Not that I really want to, I just, blah. Why? I don't know.
I was going to keep sleeping, but I had to get something to eat.