What I Would Like
So I have finally figured out what to do with my life. I want to become a neurologist. I think I especially would like to work with people that suffer from Parkinsons or perhaps stroke victims or disorders and diseases of the kind. But to do so means I need to get into the race for medical school. Which of course means I have to raise my gpa by alot, study for all the exams, get involved in who knows what activites, and sell myself yet again in applications. Then if I am successful, after four years I intern then have three years of residency. I am going to be busy and stuck for quite some time to come. And I worry if I can. I just don't have the motivation that some people do. You know, the ones who know they want to be doctors, have pressure from parents, are competitive. That's my biggest problem. I don't like to compete. I am fine with who I am, I don't need to size myself up to others to fell better or worse about that. And yet I know have to jump in with these people and fight against them just so I can have a career in what interests and maybe get to help people. Makes me worry if I am just not good enough. Maybe to be a doctor you have to be determined and completely focused. Maybe I am just not smart enough. This is definitely going to be a challenge.