the truth always hurts
well life has been...going. not bad. well sometimes bad. this morning or well for the past two days my car has beenover heating and i have needed to wear long johns just to stay warm while driving. missed my work meeting today. haha. everything is day by day. people are the oddest. they never cease to amaze. last night shanes car broke downn and some guy helped us move it out the street but i just got this weird feeling he was creepy. so i had a screwdriver stuck up my sleeve for protection. found out i have been lied to for 3 1/2 years. sleeping is where i get my only adventures. smoking has become constant and unsatisfying. i think i want to quit. we are all loooking for something from everybody. and it never really happens the way we want it. but we try real hard to bend and twist it until it is manageable. which is sad. i want to live many lives. but i feel like i am stuck in this one. i hate arguing. hate it hate it. hate realizing how everything REALLY is when i am high. i really can and it saddens me and leaves the past enjoyment of it unsatisfying. i liked it better when it made everything better. i miss some people. i really miss the people i have never met and should be in my life. how do you know your meant for someone. how do you know. when i find myself alone with myself i do the strangest things. we would drive eachother crazy if we lived together. why do i not want ********* from you? this tiny pange of something pinches me whenever i ________ i cant say what i mean to say so dont bother asking. >>>